Happy Holidays!

I hope everyone has a safe and wonderful christmas. We are going to my parents tonight for a wonderful meal and presents. The kids will get to open Grandpa and Grandma Ivie's presents. Then they will get to open their jammies from us. Of course they will want to immediately put their jammies on. With any luck they will fall asleep on the way home.


HAPPY HOLIDAYS FROM OUR FAMILY TO YOURS!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEE!

Happy birthday big boy! I can hardly believe you are six years old. You are such an amazing person. You are so resilient and I am always proud of how hard you try and never give up. I know we all can get frustrated with each other but it is not you I am frustrated with it is the disease you have to deal with. As for me you can be frustrated with me because I have no idea what I am doing. Just know that you are such an important part of this family and we love you so much. Thank you for choosing us to be your family.

I thought I was being a good mother.

Okay so we decided to take the kids to see christmas lights last night. I had also read that santas reindeer were going to be there too. So we decided to surprise the boys and not tell them what we were doing. So we went to dinner at this new place close to our house. It's called Spankys and it was an old time diner type place. Way cute. Their food was yummy too. Anyway when we started driving there Adam figured out what we were doing and blurted it out (don't ya just love big brothers). But no one knew about the reindeer. So when we got there we told them about the reindeer and they all seemed real excited. So we got up to the reindeer and Parker FREEEEEKED out. He hated every second so we decided to cut it short and go ride over to where the christmas light display was and next thing you know Dee is having a total meltdown because he was evidently not done with the reindeer and wanted to pet them. Basically I was damned if I do and damned if I don't. We opted to let Dee scream it out because ultimately it was warmer in the truck:) He completely stopped when we got to the lights and was super excited for the great light show.

So I guess at least I tried. RIGHT?

He passed!!!

Well Adam and his buddy Skyler passed their hunter safety test last night. They are both super excited and I am sure their dads are pretty glad they don't have to sit through anymore of those long and boring classes. Here is a picture that my friend (skylers mom) took of them when they passed their written test.

Stolen credit cards and a flat tire!

I seriously should have stayed in bed yesterday. I woke up feeling off and I just thought it was because I had to meet with deshawns school. I get really nervous for stupid stuff like that.

So before I had to go to Dees school I had to pick up his prescriptions and put gas in my car. Which by the way it only took $15 to fill my car that was completely empty. It used to cost me $40. Anyway, I drove over to Dees school and had my meeting with them and then drove over to Parkers school to check him in because he was a little late. Then I realized I hadn't eaten all day and I was starving so I went to get me something to eat but when I went to pay for it I realize I have no debit card. So I thought that was weird but I will grab my credit card an hurry and pay for it and then I will search through my scary purse for it. But there where no credit cards either. Okay so I was in total panic mood at this point. I tried to retrace my steps and try to figure out what happend. I had last used my debit card getting gas and then right over to dees school and then to parkers. There is no way someone had the chance to take them from me so the next logical step to take would be to go back to parkers school and see if he took them. I felt stupid interrupting their class but hello this was my money we are talking about. So anyway I bent down and whispered in parkers ear "do you have mommy's cards" And the look on his face said it all. He grabbed his back pack and there they were. He had a total of 8 cards in his backpack. Little stinker!

So crisis over I went home and then got a phone call from my sis saying she was in the area and wanted to stop by so my nephew and her stopped and visited. Well my sis went outside for a minute and Rick came home while she was out there and she said to him "do you realize Melanie's car had a flat" Then he came in and told me. He took one look at me and said "you probably should have stayed in bed today huh?"

On a lighter note Adam passed his shooting test in his hunter safety course. He still has one more class and the next day he will do his written test. He was pretty proud last night.

Crisis over!

Well I ended up getting a couple more orders and felt better about having the party. I think if (that's a big if) I do a party again I will wait until it is a slow time of year.

I think the kids are impatiently waiting for christmas this year. They are all ornery and irritated with each other. I think they might be getting sick too. I hope we don't end up being sick on Christmas. The first year me and Rick were married I was so sick with some kindof virus that made me have the worst fever ever and I ended up spending christmas eve in the ER. Good times, good times! I don't think I have ever been that sick since. Hopefully I will never be that sick again (knock on wood).

I still have christmas shopping to do and I have no idea when I am going to be able to get around to finishing. I still need to do parent gifts and Birthday gifts (for Dee and Gpa Rymer) and I still have no idea what Dee and Parkers main gifts are going to be. So I am up for any Ideas (hint, hint) Parker is 5 and Dee will be 6 so if anyone has any ideas I would love them.

Adam started his hunter safety course tonight. He is doing it with his friend Skyler and they are both really excited. I can't believe he is old enough to even do it. So for the next couple weeks he is going to be doing classes and then his testing. Funny thing is when I took my test Skylers mom and I took our classes together and now our kids are taking theirs together. How fun is that!

Okay I will quit rambling all of this randomness.

S.centsy

Okay so I had a Scentsy party today and I only had 2 people show and I feel like a total loser because she hauled all her crap in and took time out to do this party and only 2 people came. So I am putting this out there if anyone who lives in south salt lake or Utah county and you have been looking to order some S.centsy products I am keeping my party open til Monday. You can go online at scentsy dot com and check out their products. I feel like I should at least try to get some more orders for her.

Just email me at mrymer796@yahoo.com if you are interested

NO PRESSURE I am only looking for people that really want the products.

Bah Humbug!

For some reason I cannot get into the christmas spirit. I put my tree up the day after Thanksgiving and it took me 2 days to finish decorating it. Instead of me hounding Rick to put the lights up on the house he keeps asking me when I want him to. He finally put them up yesterday without me knowing. I think he might actually be more excited for christmas this year than me.

I am usually so excited for the holidays. I am usually finished shopping by Thanksgiving and I want to go and experience everything christmas. Not this year. I seriously don't want to do anything.

Maybe it's not the holidays maybe it's just the evil depression cycle I go through every year. I have suffered with bouts of depression and anxiety and this year it is hitting me hard. When I was diagnosed with anxiety my body was doing this weird tremor thing and I went on meds for it and I finally felt normal again. My body is doing the weird tremor thing again and it is driving me nuts.

When I try to talk to Rick about it he just brushes me off and prefers not deal with me. I don't blame him. My diabetes is alot to deal with. I am sure the last thing he wants is for something else to be going on. For the most part I can deal with the anxiety but when I get the tremor things it makes me go crazy.

Hopefully it will go away without meds because the last thing I need is another med to add to my regimen. The meds I was on before was expensive and a total BITCH to come off of so that really would be my last resort this time.

I am just frustrated right now so I thought why not blog? Thanks for listening to me feel sorry for myself :)

Pictures FINALLY!!!!

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Photo and video editing at www.OneTrueMedia.com

We had such a great time on our trip. We stayed in Playa Del Carmen and it was gorgeous. We seriously laughed and laughed and laughed until our guts hurt. One night I was laughing so hard I couldn't breath I thought I was going to pass out. Every night between dinner and the night show they have a band playing in the courtyard and people mingle and dance or shop when they allow vendors there. Well on the first or second night I can't remember for sure which one but one of those nights we were sitting watching people dance and waiting for the evening performance and all of the sudden Ryan (one of the people that went with us) starts laughing hysterically and told us that one of the guys that was dancing pants fell right to the floor. I looked over just as he finished pulling them up and for some real immature reason I lost it. I was trying so hard not to be noticeable. But the guy just kept on dancing like nothing had happened. I couldn't look at him in the face the rest of the trip.

The first night we got there we got there in time for dinner so we unpacked and went down to dinner. After dinner we checked out the resort a little and although it was dark we still walked down to the ocean and enjoyed the waves. We also met some people from Colorado and we stayed friends with them throughout the stay there. They were older but they had the souls of children. They were alot of fun. We went up and watched their evening entertainment and then we hung out at their sports bar that is open 24 hours and played pool for a while. We were alot younger than most of the people there. This particular resort was a very mellow resort with alot of stuffy european people. But we still had a blast and we didn't care too much about what others thought.

The second day we decided to take the day and unwind and just enjoy the beach and the ocean. I finally got Rick to go and play in the waves with us. We also walked down the beach past other resorts and also other resorts that are in the same chain too. Our resort was by far the most beautiful one. Although they are all nice and I would have stayed at any of them. We ate lunch at one of the restaurants that is an open air restaurant and it was so pleasant. All of the lunches are buffet style unless you order room service. We got sick of the buffet by the time we left but we just ordered room service and it was yummy and light. We ate dinner in the buffet this night too. After dinner we went down to the beach and hung out on the hammocks. It was romantic and relaxing.

The third day we decided to go to 5th Ave. This is where the Marina is and all of the shopping. They have some hotels here and a public beach. Lots of fun but we got really tired of being haggled by excursion people and the shopkeepers. They wouldn't barter at all which we found out the reason was because of the wristbands we were wearing. They told us that we were staying at the nicest place and that we were rich and famous americans. We just laughed because we are anything but. So we didn't get the greatest of deals. We went back to our resort and did reservations for dinner the for the next two days.

The fourth day we slept in and ordered room service and were lazy which was sooooooooo soooooooooo sooooooooo and did I say soooooooooooo nice :) We met with our travel guy that hangs out in the hotel to make sure our needs are met. We decided to book an ATV excursion with him for the next day. We then went and checked out this mini mall place just up the street from our hotel to find a backpack for our excursion. The first few places wanted a fortune for a stupid backpack. We finally found one for $10 after seeing the same one in another store for $20. We swam in the ocean again and wiped ourselves out. We went back to our rooms and got dressed up for our first dinner. We went to a real fancy Japanese restaurant. We ate alot of sushi and salmon and other thing we weren't sure what they were. I thought it was yummy. Rick could have done without.

The fifth day we had to be out to the lobby at 7:45 am to start our excursion so we ordered room service for breakfast and got ready and was picked up by this maniac driver that scared the living hell out of me. We showed up to this dive of a place to start our excursion. We got on our 4 wheelers and had to drive them on the highway right next to semis and trucks and cars. Going mach 10 down the road we finally hit a dirt road that took us into the jungle. One would think that once we hit the dirt road we would slow down a little. Oh no not us we drove on the worst dirt road with pits in the road the size of a lake going faster that I have ever drove a 4wheeler before. It was nerve wrecking but fun too. We ended up parking our bikes and hiking a short distance to this shack in the jungle. This is where we were harness up to do 3 different ziplines. We all did the first one except shannon because she is preggo and didn't want to risk it. Ryan and I did the second one and by the third one Ryan was the only one brave enough to do it. After we were done with the ziplines we went to a cenote this is basically a cave that has fresh water in it. We swam in it for a bit. It was cold but also refreshing. The water was beautiful crystal clear. After that we got back on our bikes and drove like crazy people back to where we started. After we got back we had enough time to shower and get fancy for our dinner. We went to a Rodizio Grill type of restaurant and everyone thought it was good.

One the sixth day I woke up super sore and we all slept in and ordered room service again. Then we decided to get up and catch a boat to Cozumel. We got over there and shopped and checked the place out a little. I forgot my camera so I had to buy a disposable. I am still waiting to get those pics back. We didn't get over there in time to really check out the whole Island but it was a fun experience anyway. We got back a little late but enough time to hit the buffet for dinner. We didn't really feel like watching the show so we wandered down to the beach again and hid from some rain under coconut trees. It was a blast. We hung out in the sportsbar again this night because it was to rainy to hang outside.

On the seventh day we decided to take a walk down to some local ruins. I took pics I am still waiting for these pics. It was cool they were small but the history was there. There was these weird animal there too that looked like rats without tails and they were ten times the size of a rat too. I tried to get pics but they didn't turn out too well. There were alot of lizards too. We went back to our rooms for a bit to start some packing and then decided we had to pick up a couple more souvenirs so we walked down to the little mall and got them. We hung out at the beach the rest of the day and had dinner at the infamous buffet again. We chilled and enjoyed our last night in the courtyard.

On the last day we slept in a bit and finished packing everything up and left the hotel at noon. That is 11:00 am in Utah time. Our flight was delayed and very long. After we got our kids picked up and home it was past 9:00 pm Utah time. It was a long trip home. But here we are :) Hopefully we will get to do another trip like this again sometime. I came back feeling great and alot more relaxed.

we are coming home....

Well we are flying home today. We have had an amazing time an I can't wait to blog about it when I get back. I have tons of pictures that I will post. I am just anxious to get home to my kids and love on them. So I will blog later. Hopefully my computer is fixed and I can get it back soon because I won't have internet at home without it. Ta Ta for now!

oops

I posted pics on my other blog so go over to www.removingthefatsuit.blogspot.com I will fix it later but my laptop is almost out of battery.

I have pictures

I'm a liar! I can't seem to get blogger to cooperate with me so I will try later!

I have some pics for you guys. It is so hard to take pictures when you are having such a great time but I have a couple to share. Yesterday we went to what they call 5th ave. It is miles of shops and marinas and brick roads. we had alot of fun but these mexicanos are annoying. The damn near pull youar arms off to make you come into their little shops.

Last night we hung around the hotel and watched there programs. They had all the little kids from the hotel and dressed up as different characters. Then they had three of the employees dressed up like spiderman, superman, and the guy from the matrix. The guy that dressed up as the matrix is FLAMING gay. He is hilarious. He just looks like he is always enjoying his job. We ended up the night dancinng in the courtyard. So romantic :)

Today we are going to relax in the beach and we might go down to some local ruins. They are within walking distance so we can take a jaunt down there when we feel like it.

We ate frog legs......

So we are having so much fun. We played on the beach yesterday and just stayed at our resort. The food is really yummy and we even dared each other to eat some fried frog legs. I wouldn't say that I will be craving them or anything but they weren't horrible. Last night our hotel had a mariachi band and it was a lot of fun to watch them. After that was over we went down to the beach and played on the hammocks. It was so relaxing. Today we are going to 5th ave and shop and check out the area.

I'm here!!!!!

This place is absolutly the most gorgeous place I have ever been. I just wanted to let you all know that I am here and safe and I will update more later.

2 more days!!!!

I can't believe our trip is finally here. Tomorrow the boys will be picked up by my mom and dad after they get off work and I won't see them again until next Saturday night. I hope they have a great time without us. I am sure they will. They have already informed us that they will not miss us. They are such stinkers. I know they will miss me they just don't want to admit it.

I am a nervous wreck. I always get nervous when I have to leave my babes. That is until I get to where I am going and then I can usually settle in.

I am taking my laptop so check in for updates on our week. I just set up my laptop so I can download pics too. So I will take lots of pics and post some for ya'll.

This is the last time I will post until we get there and get settled. This computer will be going to the doctor aka Brian while we are gone. So hopefully when I get back my computer will stop freezing on me and I won't have to restart it 5 times a day.

Anyway I will post later peeps!

Wierd dreams and family updates

Okay I had the weirdest dream last night and I can't seem to stop thinking about it. I dreamt that I ate silly putty and it was stuck in my guts and I couldn't even remember eating it. So what do you guys think that dream meant?

Anyway my ticker says only 4 more days till I'm sittin on the beach soaking up the rayz :) I don't think I am ever going to get everyone packed in time. I have been packing for a week straight already but I can't seem to get organized. I can't focus because I just want to go already!

I guess I better do an update on the family. Let's see Adam is doing well. I just signed him up for basketball so he is excited for that. A couple days ago I had a neighbor come over and introduce their new roommates and they had a little boy about Adam's age and asked if Adam wouldn't mind playing with him. Well Adam was at school so I told them to come back when he got home from school. So after school I told adam about him and instead of Adam waiting for him to come by Adam just went over there and introduced himself and they played for hours. I was real proud of him for two reasons one is because he is the type of person that doesn't even hesitate to befriend someone and the second reason is because he has no fear. At his age I would have been so scared to even meet a new friend let alone to just go up and introduce myself. He is such a sweetheart (well....most of the time).

Deshawn is a trooper. He is doing real well in school. We have increased his meds a little to help out with some more of his anxieties. He does really seem to be doing better with that. The school called last week and they are concerned with his fine motor skills so they are going to be testing him soon and deciding if he needs more services. Hopefully we will be hearing soon from them on that. He is reading a little too. He has learned some sight words and he is just starting to recognize them. We are really proud of how hard he works.

Parker is our little book worm. He has picked up on some reading. He loves to read and is always interested in writing words that he knows and showing off how well he can read. The only thing I have to compare him with is Adam and I know he wasn't reading even when he left kindergarten. So I think Parker is doing well. He is such a sweetie and we love him very much.

Rick has been working alot lately. His regular job has slowed down a little but we have had some friends that have needed his services. He finished up his last project last night and can't wait to hit the beach. I hate it when he has to do these little jobs but I have been able to save up some money for christmas shopping and it puts my mind at ease on whether or not Santa will be visiting us :)

As for me I have been a busy mama. I have been trying to get things ready for our trip and I have decided it is alot of work to pack a family of 5 for 1 week when we are all going in different directions. My health is doing well. I went to the doc a couple weeks ago and all my bloodwork looks good. There was concern about my blood pressure because everytime I go in my BP is up. I told him everytime I test at home it is fine. So I brought my monitor to his office and had it tested with his machine and my BP was fine. So we determined that I am just scared of my doctor :) My A1C (this is a test where they can read what your avg bloodsugar for the previous couple months) was where it needed to be. So I think I will make it another month.

Wow this post was long. I hope ya made it to the end :)

I guess I am not the only one excited

I have decided that the boys are just as excited to be getting rid of us as we are to get rid of them next weekend. As I mentioned a couple of posts ago I dug out our suitcases and decided who was getting which one. Well the two youngest decided their suitcases had to stay in their rooms. So of course I could understand that and let them put their suitcases in their closets. That was a few days ago and yesterday I was helping Dee clean his room and I went to push the suitcase out of my way with my foot and it felt like I slammed my foot into a rock. I opened it up and he already has clothes and shoes and some toys all packed and ready to go. Of course I will leave them until I am ready to really pack them up. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings.

So after I thought about it some more. I thought that maybe Parker may have done the same thing. Well I was right. The funny thing is Parker had packed pullups and like 20 pair of underwear but no clothes. How cute is that? I guess you can never have too many pair of underwear right?

I just love my boys!

I got my sticker!

Well me and Parker went to the polls this morning to cast my very first vote ever. I was supposed to vote in the presidential election when Bush won the presidency but I ended up taking my mom to the ER and we were there too late for me to vote so this year I was excited to go.

The weirdest thing happened to me this morning. I was set on who I was going to vote for and nothin was changin my mind but when I got up this morning I decided to say a little prayer in my heart to help me decide whom I wanted to vote for and I ended up voting for someone else. I am not naming names because I am private with my political thoughts but I feel like it was the best decision.

It's weird though there is only one person that I voted yes to that I felt absolutely positively 100% sure that my vote was the right decision. He is the judge that did our adoption. He is a great guy with a very compassionate heart. I am not sure how he can be with all the horrible things he sees everyday but he is an excellent judge.

Anyway I encourage all of you to vote today!

Sugar highs and wrappers everywhere!

This weekend was CRAZY. The boys were so hyped with sugar all weekend. I thought I was going to go crazy but by sunday afternoon the sugar highs hit the sugar lows and our boys were beat. It was hilarious. Dee disappeared and we finally found him sound asleep on the couch in our living room. It was only 4:00 and he was done with the day. The other boys woke him up playing around and he was pretty upset. I tried to keep him awake so we could get some dinner in him. He finally started moving again and got some dinner but he was moving pretty slow. We put the kids to bed at 8:30 and didn't hear a peep from them after that. I had to peel them out of bed this morning too. Funny what a butt load of sugar can do.

So if you have noticed my ticker for my trip says only 12 days left to go. This is pretty much the only thing on my mind right now. I am just ready to pack up and go now. I still feel really blessed to be able to go on this trip. This is something that we need desperately. Rick has worked really hard this year. We both have been stressed about money and healthcare and kids. It will just be nice to get away and pretend that none of those other probs even exist. None of this would even be possible without Rick's boss aka brother and we are really, really grateful.

So I have dug out our suitcases and now I am trying to decide which ones we are going to need and which ones the kids are going to take. Plus I have started to make a list of things that I can't forget. I did find out there is a Wal.mart real close to where we are staying so if we forget anything I am sure we can pick it up there.

Hopefully this week will be uneventful. Last week was so busy that I got behind in things and I would like this week to catch up. I am having a S.entsy party this weekend and I have to get ready for that. Plus I might end up watching my sisters kids on saturday night. Anywho I keep babbling on so I will stop boring ya!

trick or treating with no cavities....

Well the boys all went to the dentist today and they all were cavity free. THANK GOODNESS! I cannot handle it when they have to get their cavities filled. It makes me feel like I am going to pass out and puke all at the same time. I just have this wierd anxiety about the dentist. It is bad when I am the patient but when my boys are the patient I am a disaster. I know I am a dork!

Anyway I am glad we went to the dentist before halloween :) I would hate to see what happens after they eat all of this candy. Not to mention we have the holidays coming up. I am pretty sure their next check up will not be so nice :)

Good job boys!

Halloween fun!

So here we are in all of our glory. We had our annual Ivie family halloween party tonight. We had a great time and a great turn out. It was fun to see the fam again. The Ivie family is my side of the family. I love spending time with my Aunts,uncles, cousins and so on. Our family is CRAZY and I love every one of them.

Pics below are my cuties. Adam thought it would be funny to be hanna.h montana this year and it was pretty funny. Dee was optimus prime and Parker was Iro.n man. I threw together a zombie costume. We had a great night and are looking forward to trick or treating on friday.

pumpkin patch time

Me and my sister decided to take our kids to the pumpkin patch today since they were out of school for teacher development day. I think this year was the best time I had there. The crowds were small and the kids are all old enough that I don't have to worry about where they are all at. Here are a couple of pics from my sisters camera (oops forgot mine)

Tag

Okay Jeanna I thought it might be fun to do your tag. If anyone else who reads my blog wants to do it go for it. Let me know if you do it so I can make sureI read yours.

1. Did you date someone from high school? I had the same boyfriend from 8th grade to 11th grade off and on I think we broke up and got back together about ten times in those years. We even hooked up for a couple months after high school right before me and Rick started dating.

2. What kind of car did you drive? A cute little white Hyundai excel hatchback. Man I had some good times in that car. Until I totaled it when me and rick were dating. He was such a good boyfriend I didn't replace my car for at least a month or so and he toted me around the whole time. We got engaged shortly after and then we bought the next car together.

3. What was the most embarrassing moment of high school for you? probably when me and my twin sister went to a school dance together with our boyfriends and we were in line and I reach down to grab my boyfriends hand and realized I was holding my sisters boyfriends hand OOPS!

4. Were you a party animal? Who me....... NEVER!

5. Were you considered a flirt? ABSOLUTELY nothing has changed I have always been flirtatious

6. Were you in band, orchestra, or choir? I played violin for a whole year but that is about it. I took piano lessons when I was a teen for awhile. But I am no expert by any means.

7. Were you a nerd? I hope not. J/K I was just normal. I got along with every type of person.

8. Were you on any varsity teams? Nope I didn't have too much school pride :)

9. Did you ever get suspended/expelled? No thanks goodness

10. Can you still sing the fight song? Wow I haven't even thought about that song for a long time since I haven't been in high school on over 13 years.

11. Who were your favorite teachers? None. I had a serious attitude problem in high school. The most important things to me in high school were friends and my boyfriend. I wish now I would have taken it more seriously.

12. Where did you sit during lunch? Usually in the halls. We could take our lunches in the halls and eat them. Then sometime we used to pile 10 of us into my boyfriends car and go to hardees for lunch.

13. School mascot? BRUINS!

14. Did you go to Homecoming? Yes With whom? yeswith the boyfriend I had. He is in every school dance picture I have. What a waste since I had several other guys that wanted to take me out but I would never break up with "him"

15. If you could go back and do it again, would you? parts YES, parts NO

16. What do you remember most about graduation? I wore shorts under my gown and put dress shoes on so it looked like I had a dress on :)

17. Where did you go for Senior Skip Day? We never had a senior skip day

18. Were you in any clubs? No

19. Have you gained some weight since then? Who hasn't

20. Who was your prom date? None other than the ex.

21. Reunions: been to any? No I am not really that type of person.

22. Looking back, what advice would you give yourself? Get rid of the boyfriend and have some fun. Also to remember that high school does not have to be so dramatic.

I think he is gunna make it

Well I think we a have a dog on the mend now. He is absolutely back to his lovely self again and he is driving us NUTS! He seriously won't stop barking. He wants to be able to go back in to his kennel outside and I am not ready to let him out there yet. Plus Roxy (his mom) and buddy shared 2 kennels that we put together but now we have separated them to their own and I don't think he is going to like that. They usually have so much fun together but we need to keep them separate for at lease a month. We need to make sure Roxy hasn't been infected with it too. So I am happy that all of my sleepless nights have paid off. Now we just have to keep our fingers crossed that the other dogs won't come down with it. If we can make it until next wednesday without any more sicky dogs then I think we are out of the woods.

I also got some good news. I know I mentioned before how I was going to write to the pharmaceutical company for my insulin. Well I received word that they are going to give me my insulin for the next year. I already picked up three months worth. This is a HUGE relief.

Anyway TGIF and I hope everyone has a great weekend!

another day down...

Well we have made it another day. Today when I first woke up I didn't think buddy was doing very well but by this afternoon he was perking up. I finally was able to get some food in him. My vet told me to give him cottage cheese and white rice mixed. Well he would have none of that. I looked on the net to see what I could give him and found no help so I thought I would just try a little tuna. Well that was it. He only ate a little but it got his hunger going so I went and bought some baby food and some canned chicken and mixed some tuna, chicken, cottage cheese and a little rice. NOPE! He didn't want that so next I decided he really needed the protein the most so I just gave him a mixture of tuna and chicken and that was the magical mixture. I have given this to him 3 times and he has eaten it up every time so hopefully his little guts process this well. I am sick of cleaning up doggy diarrhea.

Now we have another problem now that he is not lethargic he has found his little barker. He has barked and barked and barked and barked. He wants to be loved on but I won't let the boys love on him because I am afraid they won't get all of the germies off of them and then proceed to pass those said germies on our other furry babies. So we are stuck with a dog barking and driving us nuts but hey I am proud of how well he is doing. I know the odds were not in his favor but I was very persistent and hopefully he will make a full recovery. I know we are still not out of the woods yet but I know we have felt all of your prayers and love so thanks and still keep us in your prayers for a little while longer.

still hangin on

Well our little guy is still hanging on. I am completely exhausted. I guess when "we" decided to treat buddy at home it meant that "I" would do all of the work. I seriously had 3 hour of sleep the night before last and I had maybe 4 last night.

I had to stay up till 11:00pm to give him his meds. After I gave him his meds I crawled in bed and I got the worst cramps ever (sorry TMI) So I decided to get up and take some Ibuprofen. After I got up I ended up getting the worst low blood sugar so it took me until 1:00am to get settled from that. So I got in bed and I hear a splatter in the bathroom where buddy is. So I ran in there and he had gotten out of the shower and pooed and peed on my bathroom floor instead of the shower so cleanup was a nightmare. If you have ever had a dog that has parvo you will never forget the smell of their poo. OMG it is awful. I feel so bad for him.

After I got all of that cleaned up I got back in bed and at 3:30am I got the worst diarrhea (sorry again TMI). I think I am just stressed and lack of sleep interrupted my system. I am really tired and really wish I could go back to bed today but I now have 3 sick kids that stayed home from school so I have to play sick maid to them. I have to go grocery shopping so bad, I haven't showered in 3 days, my dishes haven't been done for 2 days I would die if anyone came over right now. I think I just need you all to send me some energy vibes today.

Buddy has parvo

Oh my gosh it is 1:40am and I have just gotten back from the vet. Our sweet little buddy has parvo. He was fine yesterday and today he has been throwing up all day. I thought he might just have a bug or maybe ate something bad but after reading the horrible internet stories I thought maybe he might have it but he had no blood in his stool. Then the last clue surfaced its ugly head and I knew. I just broke down and cried. It was around 11:00pm when that happened and I immediatley called the vet and they told me to bring him right in. I was seriously crying the whole time. They gave him a IV under his skin and they filled his skin up so it could slowly hydrate him. Then we decided on at home care so they finally let me take him home and do a home treatment.

I need everyone to please say a prayer for buddy and our other dogs. The other dogs so far have no signs but it can take up to 10 days so we are going to have to watch them. In the meantime we have to bleach everything. Roxy is in our shed right now and she is not liking it and Bailey is in my office sound asleep and has no idea that anything is wrong. That is until the morning when we won't let her out. We even have to bleach our yard.

Okay here is the thing that really pisses me off. Alot of our neighbors let their dogs out at night to roam. Thus they get into my yard which is where my dogs play and infect it with their nasty diseases. We have lived here for awhile and always had dogs and never had this problem. Recently though me and some of the other neighbors have noticed alot of dogs roaming in our nieghborhood. I think that I am going to have to put a stop to it. I am going to start calling animal control on them. I hate to do that but it is not fair for people that keep their dogs put up to have to shell out tonz of money on vet bills and then ultimately have their pets die.

Adam is upset to say the least. He was so loving and nurturing to him all day. He was so worried and concerned. I am very proud of how well he is handling it. I think he may have said at least 20 prayers by now.

Buddy is in my shower (easier cleenup) sound asleep right now. Hopefully we can keep him hydrated and get him back to health.

***UPDATE***

It's now 2:30am I can't sleep I keep worrying about all my dogs. I think I might be in constant tears for the next 10 day until I know that everything is okay. I should know in the next four days if buddy is going to make it but it is going to take ten days before I know if my other dogs got it. The hardest thing about this is if my other dogs get it I don't know if we will be able to afford treatments for my other babies. THIS SUCKS SO BAD!!!!

Sad but true...

I got this in an email today. I thought it was funny :)

wonderful weekend!

Well those of you that live in utah know that we got pounded with rain. Lots of it actually. Of course this meant there was no yard work or outside projects to be done. So what else is there to do? SLEEP :)

We did do a garbage dump run first thing on saturday morning. It was wet and yucky but we had to get a load of construction mess out of the yard. Then we all came home and Rick and Adam went to get a dog house for Buddy and then they went and visited with Rick's grandparents. The younger 2 and I stayed home and wrestled around and made paper airplanes which I do have to say I can make a mean airplane.

After Rick came home I was exhausted and decided since it was a rainy day I would go lay down with my window open and enjoy an afternoon nap listening to the rain. It was absolutely the best Saturday afternoon I have had in a long time. Rick even did a pretty decent job of keeping the boys out. Although I did get a little stirred when I felt a little kiss on my cheek. I am not sure which one it was but I think it was Dee. LOVED IT! Then I drifted back into a slumber.

Sunday was a pretty laxed day too. I slept in and decided to throw the sheets into wash and pick up a little. Nothing to strenuous I didn't want to break a sweat or anything. The boys played and played and watched them some NASCA.R.

My sis called and asked me to go shopping in the afternoon. And who can resist some Sunday afternoon shopping. Not me :) So we went and took her little guy with us (FYI he was not happy with us twards the end of the trip) I got a real cute shirt from Maurice's. Then the mall closed on us so we went over to target and hit their 75% off sale racks and I got 3 shirts that totalled $9. They will be cute for Mexico. Shopping was a great way to end the weekend.

Purple ***UPDATED***

So my all time favorite color is purple. It was my grandfathers favorite color and I think I always liked it because it reminds me of him. My grandmother also loved purple lilacs. I am pretty sure that this is why purple has always been my favorite color. They were amazing people. They were a huge part of my life growing up.

So I was watching a show called shear genius and there was a hairstylist that put this amazing shade of purple in one of the clients hair and I absolutely loved it and decided I wanted to do that to my hair. So I finally talked my very conservative(love ya shan) hairdresser/sister into putting the color in my hair. I LOVE IT!

I know it was out of her comfort zone to do it but I wanted to do it real bad. Anyway I tried to take a pic but you couldn't see it very good so sorry no pic. I also did an all over color that is a shade darker than what I have been doing. It is basically a real dark brown.

I used to work for a bank and for years I was not able to do anything too outrageous so I figure I don't work and I am basically home most of the time so why not. Rick likes it mostly because he likes seeing me have fun so like I said why not.



This is kindof what it looks like. Except I have short hair and she is way cuter than me :)






***UPDATED***

I thought I would post the pics. You can't see too well but if you click on the pic you can see a little better.

Well.....

I lost my insurance. It sucks but I am trying to not let it get me down. I am frustrated but I will just have to figure out what to do next.

I am not usually a political person (I know I should probably be) but this years election and my health insurance issues have really brought to light the real issues we are facing. For the average joe the average cost of health insurance is outrageous. For someone with a chronic illness is is unreachable. My husband works in construction so there is no insurance. We tried to get a private plan and we were denied by a couple and the ones that would accept us I believe the grand total would have been over $3000 a month. So yeah that didn't and couldn't happen. I mean I guess we could have lived on the streets and had excellent health care but I think a roof over the head is much more important.

The sad thing is I did nothing to cause my diabetes and I feel like I am being punished for it. I work hard to keep it under control and I still have to have my meds. I don't understand why the government allows insurance companies to get away with it. They charge way too much for medications and lets not forget about the doctor visits. I have to have them to live yet pharmaceutical companies are charging whatever they damn well want. Where is the government in all of this. I personally think their hand is in the cookie jar somewhere. The government won't help me and they let insurance companies deny me coverage and they also let pharmaceutical companies charge me outrageous amounts of money for my meds. It is a loose loose situation.

When I hear McCain talk about throwing out cash to everyone for healthcare I just laugh because that does nothing for the chronically ill people out there. We can't get insurance. The insurance companies deny us.

Rick says that Obama wants to govern all the healthcare and that the government will have all the say as far as what meds you get to take and what doctors you can see. Well for me I say at least I am getting healthcare. It may not be exactly what I want but at least it is better than nothing. Like I say I am not a very political person but I have never been in the situation I am in now.


Sorry about the ranting I am just worked up. I know there are alot of other people out there that are in worse situations than me. I know it will all work out. Right now I have written the pharmaceutical company that supplies my insulin and I am asking them to give me assistance with my insulin. I will hopefully hear from them soon. My mom is going to hook me up with test strips. The oral meds I take are on Walmarts $4 plan so I will only have to pay $40 for 3 month supply of that. Walgreens has a walgreens brand syringe that is only $17 for a 3 month supply. I might have to change doctors which kindof sucks because it takes alot for me to be comfortable with a doctor but he charges like $300 a visit and it is not doable. There is a clinic that is alot less money that I might be able to go to. So as long as I can get assistance with my insulin I won't have to go back to work for awhile. So I am asking all of my faithful readers to please pray or send out some good vibes for me.

Thanks for listening!

Double digits!

Well my Adam has hit the double digits. I really can't hardly believe he is 10 years old already. He is an amazing guy and he is such an amazing part of this family. He was my miracle baby that took me over 2 years to get and I will never forget how grateful and blessed I felt when he was born.

He had a great birthday party today. He sent out 16 invites to friends at school and then I invited my side of the family. My sister is the only one from my family that showed up with kids and she only has 2. So you would think plan for maybe half of the invites right? Oh no, not when it comes to Adam my little socialite. I made goodie bags and planned on 20 kids. I wanted to make sure just incase they all came that I would have enough. Well every single goodie bag was taken. So not only did all of the 16 people show up from school but my sisters 2 kids and 2 extras not sure which ones they were but there were extra's. How funny! There were even 3 girls that showed up.

We went to good ole IHO.P for dinner. Adams choice. He wanted Micky D's at first but we finally talked him into something a little less greasy. Then I took him to get a leash for his puppy and a new playstation game. His birthday money was burning a hole in his pocket. He got around $70 today and he still hasn't got money from my sis and all of Ricks fam so I am sure he will find something good to spend his moo la on.

He is really not my baby anymore :( He is growing so fast and it's exciting and scary all at the same time.

Well he didn't quite cry....

We decided to let Adam have his present early because I was feeling bad because the puppy was not getting attention from Adam. Adam and his best neighborhood friend who got our last pup have been giving all their attention to the friends dog and no attention to Adam's dog.

So after talking about it we decided to go ahead and give it to him. We snuck the pup in the house and gave it him. He was so excited. He didn't know whether or not to believe it was his at first. He didn't quite cry but I did see a little tear.

So Adam and his friend are having a sleepover in the backyard with their puppies. They are simply adorable :)

I thought I would post some other fun pics of the boys. I have some of Dee and Parker at their soccer game last week. We also have some pics of the boys getting their hair done. I also took a pic of Parker, Daddy and Bailey snoozing away after a long day :)



All tuckered out!




What a stud




What is my mom making me do?




My aunt Shanda doing my hair.




look how cute!




Parker Mr. Goalie




Dee waiting to play



I have a a video of last weeks soccer game. They are so fun to watch at this age!



For some reason the sound is not matching up with the image but I am sure you can get the jist of it.

What's a mom to do?

Well we had another Dee incident today. I let him go play in the backyard this afternoon so he could play with the puppies and I was out there with him for a minute and came in the house to make a quick phone call and walked back out to check on him and there was no Dee and no puppies. So at first I am pissed and I search the whole neighborhood and he is nowhere. So I went back in the house thinking maybe he came back in the house but of course no he is not. So I am no longer pissed at this point I am FREEKING OUT and I decide to go out and check our trailer and the trailer was locked so I checked that off the list and decide to do a neighborhood backyard check and he is still nowhere by this point the tears are flowing and I am shaking to death. Then I thought well maybe he is in the trailer and locked himself in. So I go to the trailer and knock on the door and scream at Dee to open the door if he was in there. I tried to look in the window but of course the blinds are all closed. I still have no idea where he could possibly be and I am in complete hysterics. I ran in the house to call Rick and the whole time I am screaming Deshawn's name (note the throat is killing me now) I finally get Rick on the phone and I can barely speak. My throat was sore and I felt like I was going to pass out and then I decided maybe he might be hiding in the trailer because I could swear I didn't lock it last time I was in there. So I found the keys after ripping my house apart to find them and I ran out to the trailer. Just as I open the door my neighbors come over in a complete panic because they can hear me breaking down and I look in the trailer and screamed Deshawns name one more time and what do I hear? Ah yes a little tiny voice saying "what". I completely broke down mind you my husband is on the phone while all of this is going on. Poor guy there was nothing he could do but I just felt better having him trying to calm me down.

If there is one kid in the world that can make you feel like a complete disaster as a mother it is Dee. I love him so much but he tries me so hard. I can't tell sometimes if I am helping him or hurting him. I seriously yelled at him so hard when I found him. It made me feel so bad. Like scum of the earth but I was so scared and frustrated.

Needless to say we are all doing much better this evening and hopefully I didn't cause permanent damage to my child by having a nervous breakdown.

My grandbabies are gone....

We decided it was time to find our puppies a new home. We decided to advertise on one of our local free classifieds and well they were literally gone in 10 minutes. Can you believe it. Here is the best part I had one female and 4 males left that we still had to find homes for and the person that ended up getting all (yes all) works for a group that helps low income families acquire pets. How great is that? The puppies are not being sold or used to make money they are just going to families that really want a pet and can't afford ridiculous prices. It makes me really happy. I am still sad to see them go but I can't keep them all. We had one other person come and get their little guy and one more picking up their girl tonight. So we still have the chocolate(adam's surprise) and one more female that our neighbors have dibs on so I think they all are placed yeah. Best of all it only took 10 minutes :)

To work or not to work......

So I have been toying with the idea of going back to work. Of course I would have to work at nights or weekends because my kids come first. I have been able to get assistance for my meds and if they don't renew me I will have to go back to work so I can get some benefits. Unfortunately I am deemed uninsurable on private plans because of my diabetes and the only way for me to get coverage is to get on a plan with a business because they can't deny me that way.

It kindof bums me out because I already feel stretched thin sometimes and this will probably push me over the edge but I have tried to figure our budget and after bills and other monthly expenses we are only left with $5oo to deal with anything that comes up (yeah I know we are living on a tight budget but it its what you do when you want to raise your kids on your own)and when I added up what our meds will cost (me and dee) it was like $486 a month. So $24 is just not enough to cut it unfortunately :)

I am not opposed to working. I actually get excited at the prospects of getting out and being with grown ups again but I feel like I am being pushed into right now. I really want to wait until they are all in school fulltime (next year). I still may be able to get renewed and hold off for another year but I am not counting on it.

I have also been toying with the idea of going back to school. I already have a Medical assisting degree but I have never done anything with it and alot of the medical facilities around here don't really utilize MA's. So I have to make some decisions about what I want to be when I grow up :)

On other news, I really like the schedule with the boys' schooling. Dee goes in the morning and Parker in the afternoon. There is alot less fighting and the atmosphere is pretty calm during the day. I think the boys like it too. They are happy to see each other and are playing real well when they all unite in the afternoon.

The boys are all still in soccer. They have 2 games left and then Adam will be starting football. I am so proud of my boys. They love to be active (a little too much sometimes) and I am grateful for that. I hope they will stay active in sports because #1 I think sports can be very important for them when they are in their teens and #2 I think it helps their self esteem.

Well this is turning into a lot longer post than I had anticipated so I think I will go now.

They are so cute!!!

Okay people I have six more puppies that need good homes so if you know anyone in Utah that wants a puppy or 2 we are not going to charge for these pups because we want to make sure we can find good homes for them. We have had their dew claws removed but we have decided to not do any of the shots since we are not charging for them.

Okay so I have a secret so anyone who reads this and knows my oldest son Adam you can't tell him. We are keeping one of the chocolate labs for his birthday present. He has begged and begged to keep one and we keep telling him no. But we finally decided that he was responsible enough to care for him. He knows I have a soft spot in my heart for the chocolate ones because the dog I had growing up was a chocolate lab and I just love them. So he keeps telling me we should have one of those but I told him that a girl I used to work with at the bank came and picked the puppy out while he was at school. Then I am going to send the pup away for a couple days and tell Adam that she came and got him. He is going to be so excited when he opens the present. I wouldn't be surprised if he cried. We will have to see.



Adam and one of the girl puppies we named stitch




This little guy is Adams SURPRISE!




Parker being attacked!




Cute little guy!




Dirty nose too cute!





HELLO way too adorable!

I know, I know

I have been a blogger slacker. I think I just haven't had too much to say so I have just let my blog go. We had a nice labor day weekend. We stayed home this year in hopes to get our deck completed but if you live in Utah then you know what happened to our weather. It dumped HARD! It was crazy the amount of rain we got. So we hit up a couple sales and bought some summer clothes for our trip in November. But we pretty much just relaxed and chilled most of the weekend. Other than that there is not too much to report. The kids are good I am still dieting(yuck) and Rick is always busy.

I promised you all some pictures!

Okay so I finally have the chance to post a few pictures. I have some from our camping trip and a couple from the first day of kindergarten.

First Day of Kindergarten!

Well the boys start kindergarten today. I am totally blown away at how fast time has flown. It seems like I was just changing 2 sets of diapers just yesterday and now look at how independent my little guys are. They are so excited which makes me excited too. I will post pics later when I get a free moment.

My baby is 5 !!!!!!!

They grow up too fast


Well it's official my baby is 5 today. I am truly blessed to have a son like Parker. He is my little monkey and my saving grace too. His personality is so sweet and he is an amazing brother. Somehow he knows that Deshawn needs more patience and he is always able to be the one to "give in" when there is an argument with them. He is also a MONKEY. He is a child filled with no fear whatsoever. He is a climber and a jumper. The things he says sometimes just makes you wonder what is going through that little head of his. We love you very much Parker. We are so happy you are part of our family.

Parker's Birthday Bash!

Well I would say the birthday bash was a success. We were celebrating 6 birthdays all for the month of august. We figured it would be better than getting together 6 separate times. I think all of my nephews and nieces loved their party. Happy Birthday Kyler, Aubrey, Garrett, Parker, Carson and Hailey !!!!!!

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Last week of summer vacation!

So this is the last week of summer vacation around here. Adam starts school on Monday and the little boys will be having their kindergarten evaluations during that week then they will begin the next monday.

I really can't tell you how much I am looking forward to getting them back to school and having more structure. I think they are all sick of each other too. This year I have Dee going to AM kindergarten and Parker in the PM kindergarten. This will give me some good one on one with them. I figure I can work on homework with Parker in the mornings and in the afternoon when Parker goes to school and Dee gets home I can work with Dee on his homework. Then when they all get home I can help Adam with his homework in the evening.

This all sounds good in theory and hopefully it will work out. Kindergarten is a big step for the boys. They will learn how to read this year(hopefully). They are both use to going to preschool so I am sure they will handle the transition well.

In other news we are leaving for a overnighter camping trip this weekend. One last hoorah before school starts. We are taking my little car again since it is far and my car gets like 31 miles per gallon. Last time we took the truck it cost us over $200 in gas and gas prices have gone up since then. I sometimes wonder why we even have that stupid truck anymore. The only time we ever drive it is to pull our trailer. But in the meantime it sits there and costs us $450 a month in payments and another $50 in insurance. It's a diesel engine so the gas for diesel is outrageous and we never want to take it.

Also in other news we are having Parker's birthday party on Wednesday. His birthday isn't until Monday but we are having a combined birthday party with some of my other nieces and nephews so Wednesday it is. I think they will have a blast. We rented out this place called jumpin jacks. Its a place that has alot of bounce houses and slides and what not. We have rented it out from 7-9pm and we are doing cake, ice cream and presents there too. So all the mess stays there. I still can't believe my "baby" is turning 5.

I am so freekin excited!!!!!

Yesterday we found out that Rick's company is giving us a 7 day trip to the Riviera in Mexico. We aren't going until November so I have to keep my excitement on the down low or I might go insane waiting for three months to go by. We are staying in a 5 star resort all inclusive. Which means everything is paid for. I need a vacation away from my little hellions SO bad. The resort we are staying at looks like a giant palace. How cool is that? I feel very blessed for such a great gift. I just had to share with you all how excited I am.

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I'm a grandma!!!

Well it's official I am a grandma to 9 adorable puppies. Our Roxy had her pups yesterday and we are all real excited. I feel kindof bad for Roxy because the boys will not leave her alone. They are not allowed in her pen but they go out and stand outside and stare at her and try to stick their hands in to pet them. We have revised her box and now the boys can't reach them. Here are some pics of the mom and new pups.

Goodtimes in Dinosaurland!!

Well we finally made our trip to Dinosaurland (vernal,UT). We had alot of fun and came home pretty tired. It was HOT! I also got a good ole' sunburn too.

So Friday was our busiest day. We woke up and went to breakfast and then we went over to the Utah Field house. I have to say this is one of the best dinosaur museums I have been to. I thought it was a good price and the kids loved it.

After the Field house we went to Dinosaur National Monument. The actual quarry that I had been as a child was closed due to unsafe conditions. I guess they built it on a clay bed and now the building is pulling away from the rock wall it was built on. But they had a visitor center and they had a great hike that led you to actual areas with dinosaur bones in it. The boys had fun trying to find the bones. Word to the wise though. If you ever decide to do this hike in the end of July with temps at about 95 degrees, make sure you have sunscreen (hence the sunburn) and plenty of water because the terrain is desert and those rocks radiate the heat.

After we were done with the hike and visitors center we looked at the map of dinosaurland and noticed at the end of the park (at least the end of the paved part) was the Josie Morris cabin. So we decide to go over to that cabin and have lunch. It was perfect because when we got to the cabin there were picnic tables set up throughout the property so we had a very peaceful and beautiful lunch. The cabin was pretty neat too. Josie built the cabin with the help of her grandson and one of his friends and she lived there and ranched her land with no electricity, water or any amenities. All the while the world was growing quickly. They had cars and airplanes but she didn't want any of that.

Next we thought it would be fun to go fishing. There was a reservoir about 10 minutes from where we were staying. By the time we got there we were tired and we couldn't figure out how to get to the boat harbor so we gave up and went back to where we were staying and got in the pool.

After we were done swimming we showered and went out to dinner. By the time we were done with dinner we were completely exhausted. But we were staying in a tent this trip and it was still flaming hot. We couldn't have slept even if we wanted to. So we stayed up till it cooled maybe 10 more degrees (it was still like 85 degrees) We finally got to sleep.

That was our fullest day of adventure. We got there on Thursday and came home today. We stayed busy on these days too but Friday was our funnest day.

Oh yeah I forgot to mention that I have new carpet coming on Tuesday:) I am so excited. Especially since I came home to dog poo on my carpet. My little dog is litter box trained. She is 6 years old and has been box trained since she was a couple months old. She just HATES it when we leave her and she always poos when we leave just because she is pissed.

As for our other dog, we made it back before she has had her pups so I am glad about that. I want to be here when she has them. She is pretty fat and miserable. So I bet any day now.

Memory Lane!

Here are the directions:

1. Add a comment on my blog, leave a memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember, good or bad but be nice!

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog. If you don't want to play on your blog, or if you don't have a blog, I'll leave my memory of you in my comments.

Keep it going. ENJOY!!

decisions were made...

Okay so I finally got a letter from the school district about Deshawns placement. He will be going to a small group kindergarten in the next city over. But as happy as I am about that I am really upset with the school and district still. Yes I got my answers but the way the decision making process goes I was supposed to have a say in the decision and not once was I contacted or asked what my opinion was. Plus he had some IQ test and other testing done in April and I still have not seen any results from that yet. I just feel like they dropped the ball on this one and I am not happy. But I am happy that he will be going to the small group kindergarten. I think I will try to get ahold of someone at the district and see if I can get those results.

When I adopted Deshawn I told myself I will do everything in my power to provide whatever he needed. Even though his bio mom doesn't know what is happening in his life it is important to me that I provide the best I can for all of his needs so maybe one day if she ever meets him she will know that I did everything in my power for him. So she knows how much I appreciate the wonderful gift she gave me.

As far as everything else goes we are doing well. Yesterday was a little interesting though. I had an aunt and uncle visiting yesterday and while we were visiting Parker came in the house screaming and crying and he was in his birthday suit. I at first was like where are your clothes and why are you screaming? Finally he was able to tell me that deshawn had poured gas all over him. I was freaking out. I ran him to the bath tub and started dumping soap all over him and the whole time he was screaming that he was burning. So I scrubbed harder and faster and finally he was fine. My house smelled like gas for a few hour but we survived. I am still trying to figure out what the hell Dee was thinking when he was putting gas all over his brothers body.

Seriously people should I start picking out a room at the looney bin now?

New look!

Okay so I want to say thanks to everyone for the advice you all had for me. I think for the time being I am going to leave the subject alone. I think he will probagly have more questions when the puppies come and we will try to be honest with him but leave out some of the details until later.

Okay so I am trying to figure out how to change the look of my blog a little so you might see my blog changing from time to time until I figure out what I like.

Also I have to vent of course. I still have no idea where Deshawn is going to be going to school. They did a ton of testing on him in April and I still have heard nothing. I have talked to his principle 3 times this summer and yesterday I kindof let him have it. Well in a nice way anyway. I told him that I thought that I was supposed to be part of the decision making process. I also told him that I am upset that I still have no idea what the results of all the testing was. He was really nice and gave me a ton of numbers and people that I need to get ahold of. It just frustrates me because school is starting in 4 weeks and I want to prepare Deshawn for school but I can't because I have no idea where he is going for sure. Plus I feel like the school has really dropped the ball on my son and it makes me mad. That evil protective mother inside of me wants to rear it's ugly head and kick some school district butt.(in the nicest way possible)Hopefully we can get this all straightend out soon.

Advice needed!

Okay people I am at a loss here. Okay I guess I better start this by explaining that my dog was in heat a month or 2 ago and well (you know where I am going with this) the little tramp got out about 5 weeks ago and rick found her one morning across the street flirting with two other dogs and well we think she may be preggo.

Okay so me and Rick are obviously not very happy because they will not be purebred puppies and we know it can be hard to find good homes for them. So hopefully if she is preggo we will be able to find homes for them. Anyway my problem is my son Adam who is almost 10 has been asking "Questions" about how, what, where and why. I have never had "THE TALK" with him yet and I am not quite sure when it is an appropriate age to have "THE TALK" either. I think I have answered the questions he has had enough to satisfy him for now. But he keeps saying he is confused and isn't understanding things. UUHHHGG!! I am not ready for him to know these things yet but I also don't want him confused and drawing his own conclusions either. What do you all think? I really need some advice here because this all new to me and I don't want to screw my kid up any worse than I already have :)