all alone

Well last friday I received a phone call from Parkers teacher. She thinks he would benefit from going to the all day kindergarten. He is a level higher in his reading than where he is "supposed" to be but her other kids are soaring even higher and he seems to be loosing interest. This kindof surprised me because he is my one kid that has seemed to do better in school but I think she is a phenomenal teacher and she really wants to get him excited about reading again. So that means I am without my baby :(
I loved my one on one time with him in the mornings. But he is so excited. He woke up before me this morning and when I went to get him up he was sitting on his bed all dressed and ready to go. He is so excited to get to eat lunch at school and have an extra recess you know all the important things about school.

This could be a good thing for me also. Some of the nights when my shifts at work end later than expected it will be nice to be able to get the kids off to school and come back home to catch a nap. Plus this will help him get ready for next year.

Tough...

I have decided that it is extremely tough to get used to working again after being a stay at home mom. I am feeling overwhelmed that I don't have enough time to get everything done in a day. Also this may sound weird but I am feeling a little guilty for leaving my family in the evenings. It all started to hit me when I signed Adam up for little league and I realized that I will have to miss all of his games. Then I started thinking about all of the things I am going to miss out on like family parties and birthdays and what not. So I am feeling a little bummed right now over it all. But we desperately need insurance. What sucks is I have heard our benefits are outrageous too so all of my money will probably be going to pay for that. UUUUUGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!! Okay I feel better now :)

I am sure as time goes on I will get used to it. I just need to figure out a new routine. I am a routine kindof girl. I function so much better when I have a schedule. I just hope that when I am able to get the benefits that they are not as outrageous as everyone says they are. I would hate to put in my 3 month probation and find out I can't afford the insurance. What sucks for me is that I have to wait 6 months after my probation to be able to have them qualify me for anything diabetes related. You know the whole "preexisting condition" thing. I hope they will cover Deshawn for his PDD.

Anywho I better run I am going shopping for some more clothes with my sister.

13 Years!!!

So today is our 13th anniversary. It has been wonderful being married to my bestfriend for that long. I thank god everyday that I have him in my life. We have gone through alot together and I think it has only made us so much stronger.

He asked me what I wanted to do and I told him that I was too worn out to plan anything this year so I told him surprise me which he has never done. So I figured out that he has been making some plans. I felt bad because he went to buy me a new camera last night with the boys while I was at work and his credit card declined which was weird so he called them and they told him that the payment hadn't been made so I came home and sure enough I had never made the payment. I wrote it down in my checkbook register like I had made the payment but I guess I must have overlooked scheduling the payment online. So I give him credit for at least trying. I am assuming we will go get it later. But he arranged for a babysitter (which he has never done) and we are going to go out to dinner tonight kid free :)

I'm the grandma

So the thing I feared the most came true....I am the grandma :)

All the girls I work directly with are about 10 years younger than me. So I am the old fart of the group. But it's okay the girls are fun and they are so funny to watch. They remind me of me when I was younger before I got married. Boy crazy and footloose and fancy free. None of them are married. A couple of them have kids so at least we have that in common.

As far as the work goes it is easy peezy compared to the bank. I still have alot to learn as far as their computer programs go but I am sure it won't be too long before I get it down.(hopefully. I just have to keep asking a billion questions until I learn it all I guess. I feel like I have to keep interrupting them all the time so I can ask one of my bazillion questions.

So we will have to see how it goes. So far I think I will be okay there.

Nervous nelly!

Just call me a nervous nelly. I am sick to my stomach today. I can't hold still for nothing and I just want to get my first day of work over with. I haven't had a first day of work since I was 20. That is if you don't count when I switched departments at the bank. But that didn't really feel like a first day since I knew everyone already. I just hope I am not the old grandma of the group. I felt like it when I went in for my interview.

So I got to go shopping for a few new clothes last night since my normal jogging outfits will not do for work. This is gunna suck having to wear uncomfortable clothes again :) I really like my pj's and jogging pants. I think I might be a little pathetic what do you think?

On a sad note Deshawn is protesting me having to work. He said that he is going to be sad and that he is going to miss me. It made me feel bad for a second and then I realized that I am sure he will not miss me because all he does after school is play with his friends.

Something super cute about the boys. Evidently they know how to ride their bikes without their training wheels now. Yesterday Parker just hopped on a bike that didn't have training wheels on it and he just took off. So last night when I was shopping Rick pulled Deshawns training wheels off and he started riding without training wheels too. He was so proud he had to show me first thing this morning. So I apologize now to my neighbors who had to see me standing outside looking like a scary monster that just crawled out of bed.

Anyway I will post tomorrow and let everyone know how my first day went.

new job

I guess I had to vent and pout a little. I got a phone call today offering me that job I was whining about. Of course I took it. There are slim pickins around here lately. The hours are right and the location is the best and they have benefits. The only thing I don't like is I have to work rotating saturdays. I guess that is something I can get over.

I am just happy that I can stop job hunting. It takes so much time. I can quit worrying so much about what we are going to do if Rick looses his job. The only sad part about that is the fact that Rick makes 4 times as much as I do. But at least I could make the house payment right?

Anywho thanks to all of you that have listen to me rant about this subject. Now wish me luck in my endeavor. I haven't worked in 5 1/2 years and I am a little freeked out.

WTF! (what the freek)

I edited my title a little. At first when I started this post I may have been feeling more like WTF in all it's glory but now that I have calmed down I think I better change it to what the freek(I am from utah afterall).


I am so pissed right now. I was supposed to hear by 4 o'clock from the place I interviewed at yesterday and it is now 5:40 and nothing. All I'm saying is don't tell someone you'll call them by a certain time and then don't. I think it is one of the most unprofessional not to mention rude things you can do to someone that took time out of their life to show interest in working for your company. Even though it is not a company that makes me all giddy inside to work for I still need a damn job.

I swear nothing can make you feel more like a huge loser than when you put in for a position that is something you are overqualified for and you don't get it.


Sorry to rant but I needed to vent!

Interview update

I had my interview today for the compliance secretary job and all went well. I am definitely qualified. I think this job will require maybe 1/20th the amount of brain cells I had to use when I worked for the bank. It's very basic. I think the girl who interviewed me was like 10 years younger than me. Which can be a bad thing if they are looking for friends and not great employees. So we will see. The pay is not great but they do offer benefits and the hours are perfect. Plus it is only like an 8 minute drive from my house. The place was very unprofessional and everyones desk was a disaster. which is something I am not used to but I can live with. She told me she would call me sometime before 4pm tomorrow so either way I will be okay.

Finally....

I have an interview for a compliance secretary position tomorrow at 4:30. Keep your fingers crossed.

I will update after the interview.

Jobless update

The job hunt STILL continues. Things are starting to get scary for ricks company too. I have put in so many applications that I am starting to forget which ones I have put in for. Now that Ricks work isn't looking so good he has decided to start putting in resumes. so far he has put in for 8 different positions. Hopefully he will have some luck with those. They pay decent and have kick A benefits. So if one of those jobs work out I am not sure where that will leave me in the job search but for now I am going to keep on searching and if something comes up then I will take it. Please keep us in your prayers. I am really starting to worry.

For other news the weather is making me go crazy. One minute it is teasing us and telling me it is spring and the next minute it is a white out blizzard. I AM SO SICK OF THE COLD! I need some sunshine :)

PS---There are a few of you (you know who you are) that think it is cool to stop blogging and cut me out of your bloggy lives. Please start blogging again. I need more from my bloggy friends/family.

Another meeting...UPDATED

I once again have a meeting with deshawns school. I get so sick of these meetings. I like to know how he is doing but to me that's what parent teacher conference is for. This meeting is about his classification. He has been classified as developmentally delayed but after I had his doctor from primary childrens give them paperwork on his diagnosis of PDD-NOS they need to change things at the school. I am not quite sure exactly what this means as far as his services go but his teacher was saying that children with the diagnosis developmental delay stop getting services or services change at 7 years old but if they are in other classifications the services are different. I will find out today all of my questions about that.

I will update when I get back from that meeting.


UPDATE:
I went to Deshawns meeting and all went well. We basically just had to sign some papers and they said that things won't change for him but by changing his classification It will help all of his teachers and service providers to be able to understand his situation better and they will know more how to be able to treat his behaviours and what not. If he were to stay under the classification of developmental delay when he turns 7 then they basically would have to drop any classification. What that means I'm not sure but now that his classification has changed we don't have to worry about that at all.

fifth disease

Parker has had a weird rash on his body. At first we just thought it might be some kind of allergy but the more days that went by made us think differently. Well yesterday it was horrible. I decided that I should take him to the doctor. I was worried that it might be some kind of allergy. Except I had been giving him an antihistamine and it was doing nothing for his rash. He wasn't running a fever or anything so I wasn't too worried but I felt like I needed to rule out any kind of allergy especially since he is on amoxicillin and Adam is allergic to amoxicillin. So the doctor ruled out any kind of allergy and told me he has fifth disease(slapped cheek). They call it slapped cheek because that is what the rash looks like. It isn't bumpy or anything. It is really weird. It is not harmful and he feels fine. It can take up to 3 months to totally be gone. It is contagious but only before the rash appears so there is not much we can do to prevent the spread of it. After a week or so he should look normal unless he gets sweaty or heated and then it will come back out again. Leave it up to Parker to get some weird thing like this.

Job hunting sucks

I am so tired of sending my resume out and filling out applications. I am also bummed that I had to turn down the opportunity at a great job with the most awesome benefits. The job was 40 minutes away and with the way Utah weather is I was just nervous to have to drive that far to go to work. It would have been a great job too. Instead I have to sit here and wonder if anyone out there in cyberspace has received any of my resumes or applications. Everywhere wants you to fill out apps online or email your resume. It seems so impersonal and you never know if they actually get your apps or not.

As far as school goes I have decided to wait until the kids are in school full time to start anything like that. I just don't have time to do school until they are in school all day. They will start full time in the middle of August so that will give me a few months to research what I am going to do.

Keep your fingers crossed that I find something soon:)