Tuckered out

Well today was a very busy day. We woke up bright and early and started a new flower bed in our back yard. We have used this area primarily for a sandbox but after some recent changes in the back yard we have decided that we need to put a flower bed in that spot so it looks pretty for potential buyers. We spent 5 or so hours in the peltin sun and finally finished it around 2:oo this afternoon. Well I took a good ole nap after that kindof morning and woke up in time to have dinner.

After dinner we spent the evening in the canyon which is only 10-15 min from our house. We drove around and saw lots of deer and elk. What a beautiful evening. I love spending time in the mountains. We also went up to an area where a little boy was killed last week by a bear. I feel kindof bad because my youngest keeps talking about "the bear that killed the boy". Hopefully he will forget about that before he falls asleep tonight. Maybe we shouldn't have saud anything about that.

Anyway it was a hot, tiring and beautiful day!!

Let us sleep!!

Okay to start my story today I have to tell you what lead up to this. My middle child (the one I adopted) has this little problem with getting out of his bed and waking up my youngest child. Well this last little while I have notice that this has been quite bothersome to my youngest. So we have started to lock his doors at his request to keep his brother out. Every night when we give him his kisses and tuck him in he always says "lock my door please" so we do. Last night I heard the youngest get up and use the potty and go back to bed and I think he forgot to re lock his door because I woke to my middle child screaming his lungs out. He kept screaming for me and I jumped out of bed only to find my youngest chasing him with something to hit him with. After all was calmed down and I put some cartoons on for them my youngest told me that he wanted to "beat the crap out of him" This is the first time I have ever heared him say anything like this. He told me he was mad and that he HATES it when his brother wakes him up. I do believe he has inherited my need for sleep. It was a little crazy but cute in a weird sort of way. Not that I accept this behavior but I thought it was cute that he had had enough of his brother doing this to him.

Oh one more thing the youngest said that was totally cute. We were snuggling and watching cartoons and he looks at me with his head tilted and the biggest smile ever and says" I lub you mommy" and then says "your my best girl" Okay he totally melted me flat. What can ya say I'm a sucker for those boys.

The picture posted above is of my boys this afternoon playing in their pool.

Another year come and gone!

Yesterday was the birthday of the little baby boy we lost. It is always hard. Every year I think next year it won't break my heart when we come to bring him his birthday flowers but it always breaks my heart. He should be with us. It is so hard to explain to my two youngest who he is. Which breaks my heart because he is every much a part of the family as they are. It has been 7 years now but it feels like yesterday.
I really want to go into detail a little more about this situation because I want it included in my blog for my blogger friends but I don't have a lot of time today but I will post about it. I found that no matter how devistating it was it has always helped me to talk about it. I feel if I don't talk about it I am saying that he doesn't matter to me and that is definetly not the case.

I love Sundays

Today was just a relaxing day. We honestly did nothing of great importance. We had a couple of visitors. My parents came over this morning and got a grandkid fix and this afternoon my (get this) my ex-aunts (whom I have never exed) husband (whom is very much an uncle to me) came over and spent the afternoon and evening with us. We bar b qued and had a very relaxing day with nothing to do but visit. I really love it when he comes to visit us. He is temporarily in town working (he is from pheonix)and when he doesn't go home for the weekends he spends some of that time with us. We really enjoy his company. He is a really great guy. Other than that nothing much to report

sweet miracles

Well today was a fun day. I finally got to meet Miss Riley. Miss Riley is my cousin Dee and her partner Shelly's sweet little miracle baby. We had a baby shower for them today and it was alot of fun to finally meet her.

I am still amazed at what a miracle she is. For those of you who don't know whom I am talking about go visit www.3dogs2moms1baby.blogspot.com and read about Miss Riley's journey here. If you don't believe in miracles you will after you get to know Riley.

Here is a video montage of the shower. There is one with me holding her and there is also one there with my new little nephew Lance and Riley together. Also with some help from my sister in law I was able to make the blanket posted above for Riley.

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Rodeo fun!!

This week is our city days and we have had lots of fun enjoying the festivities. Yesterday we went to the carnival and spent our life savings to let our kids ride a few rides. Okay so I exaggerated a little but my gosh they sure do want alot these days. They were hilarious. We put them on the little tiny roller coaster and the looks on their faces the first time around was absolutely the funniest thing I have seen in awhile. I was laughing so hard I had tears streaming down my face. I am such an awful mother but for the price I was paying I needed a good laugh.

Tonight we went to the rodeo. This was our kids first time to the rodeo well at least from what they can remember. They had a blast. They jumped, danced, clapped, sang and laughed a whole lot. I just love to watch them have such a great time. My only bad for the night is I forgot my camera. WHAT WAS I THINKING!!! I got a picture or two on my camera phone but I still haven't figured out how to put those on my camera.

All in all we have had a really great week!!

Well what do you know

Today was a very successful day at the movies. The boys all got their treats and watched the movie and....get this...NO MESS!!!

Today was a monumental day for me though. For those of you who don't know I have been struggling with diabetes for awhile now. Mostly since my pregnancies but more so in the last year. We have been treating with oral meds for over a year now and I responded to them great for a short while in the beginning but I have been struggling ever since despite all of my efforts. We decided to start a long lasting insulin to my regimine of meds. I always thought I never wanted to go on insulin because it feels like everyone I know that has been on insulin has died. Which in my family that is alot of people (you gotta love genetics). Anyhow it has come to the point that I am relieved to go on it. I felt like such a failure that I couldn't get my numbers down. I always hear from people that you can control things through diet and exercise but I tried so hard. I get really sick of people who don't know what they are talking about. Every diabetic is different you just have to find what works for you. Yeah there are some diabetics out there that can control their diabetes by diet and exercise alone but that's not me. I tried my hardest. It was to the point where I wasn't even eating enough calories just so I could try to keep my sugars down. I felt like I was having to prove myself to people and I have finally got comfortable with the fact that I have no control over this situation. I can still try to control them the best I can but my body is screaming for more help. I have to put my pride aside and try to get my bloodsugar undercontrol or I will not be a heathly mother. Plus who wants to die young? NOT me thank you very much I still have a lotta livin to do.

Anyhow thanks for listening to me. It's just nice to spill my guts every once in awhile. Especially since this is a very sensitive subject for me.

Happy Father's Day!!!!

I just want to shout out happy fathers day to all the fathers out there. We had a great fathers day. We made daddy breakfast and gave him his presents and then we had a great morning fishing.

After we went fishing we spent the afternoon with my dad and family. It was really nice to spend time together since we haven't been able to really do that since my parent's were building a new house last year and they were in between homes.

This evening has been a mellow evening just spending time together as a family. I am attatching pics of our fishing trip. We caught 3 fish and cooked them up for dinner tonight. MMMMM Yummy!

congratulations!!!!

I just wanted to shout out congratulations to my cousin the "Brat" and his wife. They are pregnant with their first baby and I am really excited for them both. What a big step. I know the "brat" will make a good daddy because my kids love him soooooo much.

I learned my lesson!

This has been yet another crazy week. There hasn't been any one thing that has been out of control but all together it's always out of control.

Tuesday was our summer movie day. Once a week we go to the Scera and watch a movie and have a little snack. Usually the snack consists of a small candy and or a small drink and as me and the little sis would say the REALLY small popcorn. Well within seconds my little niece spilled hers all over the floor. So I thought maybe I will get the bucket of popcorn and refill their really small popcorn cups. Well.......My first mistake. After filling all of their cups and snacking for awhile on the bucket of popcorn my youngest decided to dump the rest out. Can I just point out the floor was looking a little scary at this point. So I don't freek out because that particular bucket is refillable. So I go and refill it and here starts the second mistake. The youngest snuck it and flung it all around. He emptied about half of it. So when the show was ending before the lights popped on I ushered them out the door so nobody knew it was my little devils that made that horrendous mess...he he he. So my lesson this week is they are going to have to suffer with the little size of popcorn.

After the show we decided to go and see if the new mommy needed some help. So I loved on the cutest little nephew ever. And helped clean up some things and then I made them some dinner. It was really fun to hold that little bundle of joy. They are so innocent and cute.

Yesterday was crazy busy. We went to get the youngests stitched out. It literally took three of us to hold him down while they took out two of the three stitches. He tried to bite the nurse at first. Then when he realized it didn't hurt and let them take the last one out without any incident. Then we went and got the oldests friend and he stayed the night at our house. I also did some pics for my little sis.

Today we took the friend home and stayed the afternoon and let the kids play and swim. It was a good day!

what a week

Well I guess we can start with sunday. Sunday started off as a real great day. We are decluttering our house so we made a couple storage unit runs. Then we went to my mom and dads to pick up our oldest since he had a sleepover the night before and then the whole family went to go see pir.ates of the carribe.an. Which we had a great time. Then we came home and mowed the lawn and barbqued. MMMMM Yummy. Well I just finished my hamburger and was getting ready to put the kids to bed and my husband came rushing into the house with my youngest boy and there was blood everywhere. Yeah our family has it's first recipient of stitches. I secretly knew it would be him. He is quite the monkey.

Well all week I have been waiting for my twin sister to have her baby. What a rollercoaster. She was due on may 28th so I have been on edge for three weeks. This is her first baby so we just didn't know what to expect as far as labor goes. But finally alas she called me at 6:30 am yesterday morning saying her contractions were 8 min apart. So frantically I try to arrange a babysitter bright and early in the morning and thanks to a wonderful sister in law I was on my way at about 8:00AM. Wow what a day. Finally after a very long labor my little nephew was born at 8:21PM. I am a new proud aunt.

Why! Why! Why!

Some days you just have to ask yourself WHY! Why me!

We all decided it would be great to have a nap today. So the husband fell asleep first, leaving me to handle the little munchkins. Just as I felt myself drifting I could hear them playing around. So I go to see what they were into and noticed a sharpie in my youngest sons hand. So I grab it and question him "what did you write on sweetie" and of course no reply he just gives me this look like, What? What did I do? He is almost 4 so I am thinking in my head "you are old enough to know darn good and well why I am questioning you" anyhow I looked all around and YEAH there was no marker on the walls, floors, or the kids so whew I was safe on that one.

So I tuck them back into bed and head to my bed. By this time I realize I am not going to be able to take a nap so I decided to go watch some tv. Well I soon come to realize the kids are not going to give into the dreaded nap. So I still wanted some quiet time (heaven forbid) so I tuck them into big brothers bed to watch some cartoons. Then I went ahead with my quiet afternoon.

Well the husband finally awakes from his slumber because the boys couldn't stand it that their daddy was still asleep and decided to pounce on him until he got up. Which by the way he loved every minute of. Then the husband decided to go get a drink in the kitchen of course the little munchkins have to follow. Then all of the sudden I hear "lets go tell mom what you did". I thought now what? I then buried my head in my pillow. Oh no what could it be. Well let me tell you. What do you get when your 4 year old gets ahold of a razor blade? BIG HUGE GASHES in the wall. Lets also not forget about the slashes in big brothers comforter set.

Okay so keep in mind our house is currently on the market so there was no procrastination on the repair work. So the whole time I was repairing all of this I was thinking to myself how in the world did those sneaky little boys do all of that damage without me hearing a thing. Little boys are miraculous.

So I have spent most of the evening huffing and puffing about all I had to do to fix this and have finally calmed down now enough to be able to laugh about it. Probably because it is all fixed after a little sandpaper and paint. No worries right?

A day at the park

Well today started out really relaxed. It was the first day of summer break and we all just slowly peeled ourselves out of bed. We sat around in our pj's until almost noon and then my sister called and invited us to the park for a playdate.

So we went to the park. I have never actually been to this one and the kids thought it was just great that we weren't going to the same old park we usually go to. The had alot of fun. Then it was time to leave. Well for those of you who know me know the son that I adopted has some OCD issues. He had brought a toy along with him and had set it down somewhere and was having a total breakdown because I couldn't find it. This particular son is also non-verbal so I cannot just simply ask him to tell me where it is. Due to the total breakdown and his lets say not so great behavior there was no way he was about to show me where he put it. Needless to say by the time I gave up and we walked to the car he was in a full on temper tantrum. Mind you he is waaaaaaay to old to be acting like this (he is the 4 1/2 year old) so people are staring at me like what the hell is wrong with you lady. I only wish everyone could understand what he is like before they make the stare down eyes at me. Anyway he was screaming so hard I couldn't even pull out of the parking stall. So while my other kids were screaming because they couldn't stand his screaming I got out of the car and pulled him out. You should have seen the glares by now. But keep in my mind I thought If I can pull him away from the situation he would maybe calm down enough that I could try to talk to him. No I was very very wrong. He was still in hysterics so I decided to walk around to the drivers seat and just get in and shut the door. In turn he followed me and stood by my door and just screeeeeeeeemmmmmmeeed. What should I have done? Finally my sister could hear all the commotion when she was getting her kids in her car. Can I say she was a lifesaver. She came over and told him if he didn't stop crying that he was going home with her. And what do you know it worked. Amazing!!

He is such a special little blessing in our lives. He can melt you in a second with just his smile. He is super sweet but sometimes when he struggles with the communication issues he can be uncontrollable. I love him so much and it hurts me so much to see him struggling. The main reason we adopted him (aside from the fact we wanted another child and was having fertility issues) was because we thought it would be great to give this little guy a good stable family so he could have the best chances in life. I feel we have failed him in some way. I know there is nothing we could have done to change things for him but it is heartbreaking to see him so frustrated.

I posted a picture above of my little tantrum guy. Look at that cute face who could stay mad at that.