What's up

Well there is nothing much going on since my last post. We are still trying to get ready for christmas. We are getting my oldest a cell phone for christmas and once we pick that up we will be done with shopping. I am still not sure how I feel about him getting a cell phone but I know I will feel better if he has one and for 10 bucks a month it is well worth it to me. Plus I will have a bargaining chip with him once he gets it.

I only have 5 more working days and I will be off for a couple weeks for the holidays. This is where I LOVE my job. I get so much time off. My paychecks suck but they do pay for groceries and that is good enough for me. I get alot of time off and get a paycheck all year so I am good for now.

I went to the doctor yesterday and he wants to put a monitor on me that continuously reads my bloodsugars so he can get a better idea of how he wants to continue treating me. I have to wear it for a week which I am not looking forward to but I would like to get a tighter control of my blood sugars. For those of you who know what an A1C is my number is a 7.8 which is not great but not horrible. So we are just trying to achieve great.

The kids are great and so excited for christmas they can hardly stand it. To tell the truth neither can I. I am really excited for christmas this year. I actually did less presents this year but I think they are going to love what they are getting. We will see :)

Attatched are pics from my family christmas party. We had santa and alot of fun!

WOW!!!

It has been way too long since I posted. Ever since I started working I feel so drained that it is hard to get motivated to post anything.

November has been a crazy busy month. My sister had her gallbladder out so I was helping out where I could with her children. I have been christmas shopping whenever I have a free minute. I was trying to finish before Thanksgiving but I didn't quite make it this year. I still have a few odds and ends to pick up. Then last sunday my moms side of the family got together for a Thanksgiving feast of pizza :) I am pretty sure if my grandma was alive she would be so very disappointed in us for that one.

Thanksgiving was a bust for me. We went to Ricks parents house and we were told the wrong time so everyone started without us. Kindof left me in a foul mood. We were scraping for some of the food. But we did get fed. I don't know what it is but his parents are really striking a nerve with me lately. They are great people but they have done a few things that have struck me wrong. One day we were over to their house and Rick had been there for hours working on an outdoor playhouse and the boys were being rowdy and his dad started swearing at them and yelling. It really hurt my feelings because this is the impression my kids will have of their grandpa. We don't get out to see them that often and I feel like it should be a good experience and not a bad one. I should have said something but I just packed the kids up and left. Rick stayed behind and ate some dinner that she only made him (that's a whole other story). Another thing is that she forgot to get Adam a birthday present. She usually gives them money so I just gave Adam the money that she would have given him. But his feelings were hurt that she forgot about him. I dunno what to think but enough of that:)

I shopped one store on black friday and got me a wheat grinder for $150 what a deal:) I left at 5:30 and was home and back to sleep by 6:10 so not too bad. We ended up putting up the christmas tree and the house lights so we are all ready for the christmas season at our house.

The kids are all doing great. Deshawn is struggling a little bit with his emotions. I am not sure what that is about but he is doing a little better the last couple of days. Since his last doctor appt we have been dealing with another diagnosis. He was Diagnosed ADHD. This is really not something I noticed before because I have really only focused on his other issues. So now we are trying to decide to add more meds or not. Right now I am leaning towards no. I thought I would list on here his official diagnosis for some people that don't know. He has been diagnosed with PDD-NOS which is in the autism family also Anxiety disorder, Oppositional Defiant disorder, Fetal Alcohol syndrome, Expressive language disorder,Developmental coordination disorder, insomnia and now ADHD. So as you can see we have our hands full with him. We love him so much and just want the best for him. I just hope we can give him everything he needs.

Hope you all had a great Thanksgiving!

HALLOWEEN!

Deshawn has big news! ***UPDATED***

Well Deshawn officially lost his first tooth yesterday. He was so excited to have the tooth fairy come and take his tooth away. When he woke up he came running into our room and had to show us his crisp $1 bill. He was sleeping in Parkers room and so Parker came up with some long winded story about how he got in a pillow fight with the tooth fairy and she hugged him and told him that he needed to hurry and lose a tooth so she could come back. That kid cracks me up. His stories are so out there sometimes and I honestly believe he believes himself half the time.

***Just as I finished typing this post Adam and Deshawn were messing around and Adam ended up hitting Deshawns other tooth and it was so loose that we had to yank it out. So now he wants to know why he talks so funny :)***

I have once again been a terrible blogger but I feel like I don't have alot of time to blog like I use to. I hate it because I love blogging and things have been going well for us lately so I should be blogging about it.

Me and Rick just got back last week from a deer hunting trip. We hiked our behinds off and took alot of 4wheeler trips. The trees were starting to change colors and being in the mountains in the fall is such an incredible feeling. We were on these trails in the middle of nowhere and it was so pretty. Plus I got to share all of this beauty with my wonderful husband. It was nice to be able to spend one on one time with him. He is so much fun to spend time with and we always have so much fun being together.

While we were gone Adam had his 11th birthday (I know we are bad parents leaving our kid on his birthday) I can't believe he is 11 already. Time seriously flies. I just love that kid so much.

Deshawn is doing so well with school this year. He is attending the same school as the other 2 boys this year and he is loving it. On Friday he came home and I pulled out his homework and told him to wait for me to finish the dishes and I would help him with his math and he told me that it was okay he didn't need my help so I let him go for it and when I finished the dishes I figured I better check it and see if he did it right and he did all 3 pages correctly. I was floored. He is a smarty pants :)

Parker he always has a story to tell. He comes home with some of the funniest stories sometimes. One of his stories was that his teacher locks the kids in the bathroom and won't let them out until they pee their pants. Only my Parker can come up with something so out there.

Work is going well for me. I am still super excited about the benefits that I will get. Medical, Dental , Life , Vision and Disability plus 401k and Utah state retirement. It is such a nice feeling. Alot of my worries are no more.

Ricks work is hit and miss. I am hoping that he will be able to stay busy through the winter. As for right now they have been working pretty steady. He is still having problems with his back and I hate that he is in pain all the time. Hopefully now that we have insurance maybe he can have it looked at again.

So yeah we are hangin in there and I will try to post more often. There are a few people who have been complaining about how I have been neglecting my blog so I guess I better stop slackin.

Proud new aunt...and the favorite one too :)

I am the proud new aunt to Addison Michelle. My little sister had her third baby yesterday and she is absolutely gorgeous and I am not just sayin that. I am already in love with her. I just love my nieces and nephews so much :)

Job Drama

So last week my last job called and asked me if I wanted to come back to work. I was more than ecstatic to tell them that I had found other employment. Well that was on Wednesday and on Saturday I got a phone call from one of the girls I worked with at that job telling me that she got laid off and so did a couple of the other girls. So we talked for awhile and she told me about all that was going on after I left there. They demoted everyone that could be demoted and then on the actual day that they called and asked me to come back they told everyone that they were going to drop peoples wages. WTF? I am so glad now that I got laid off. They are up to some shady stuff and I am glad I am not there for it. I am still trying to figure out why they wanted me to come back when they were just going to lay off a bunch of people. The weird part is I am the only one they asked to come back from the previous layoff. The whole thing is WEIRD.

As far as the new job goes I am getting used to it now. I am still really tired after work and for the most part that lasts until I go to bed but hopefully I will get more used to that. I just finished filling out all the paperwork for my job. One for retirement one for health insurance, one for disability insurance,one for vision insurance,and one for dental insurance. It took forever but I am very grateful that I will have insurance.

Other happy news that I can't wait for is my sister is scheduled for a c-section on the 18th and I am dying to meet miss addison :) I need a baby fix so I am excited to get to love on a new baby.

Oldies

Okay so I thought I would add some cute pics on here. I was adding them on face.book and thought my blogger friends might want to see them.





So here is a picture of me, my twin sister Shelly and My cousin Brian. Our parents posed us for this shot. They can be so cruel :)




This picture has my mom,me, my sisters, my uncle and my cousins in it. We went to Heber and had our pics done in their "old town"





This picture has me, my twin sister, My cousin Dieneke (Dee), My cousin Danny and my cousin Rick. My grandma had this picture on her wall my entire life. It finally came down when my grandfather passed away.

2 Days down!

Well I made it through 2 days of working. My feet are killing me but I am not as tired as I thought I would be. I am just not used to working on my feet. I have always had a desk job since I was 20 so it will take a while to get used to it. But I found out today that I will be getting a paycheck all year even when I am off work for the summer. Then I called our district HR dept and was talking to them and she told me that because I am a contracted employee I will get the state of utah retirement and I will only have to pay $215 for my whole family to have medical insurance. I am so excited for this because we have been without insurance for a year and it is not a comfortable feeling.

This job is going to work out so well. Rick gets the kids up,dressed and fed and his mom works right by our house so she picks them up and takes them to school before she goes to work and I am home by 1:00 or 1:30. I also have all the same days off that my kids do because I work in the same district they attend school in.

As far as my kids go they are loving school. Dee told me tonight that school is GREAT and that he loves it. I have also noticed that Adam has a great attitude this year I think it has alot to do with the fact that his teacher is a male but whatever it is I will take it last year was a difficult one. Parker he just goes with the flow. He is happy to be back in school. His teacher is also a male teacher which is different for a first grade teacher but he is one of those teachers that has a gentle soul.

Thangs are changing but in a good way and I think things are looking up for us :)

Great News!

Well ya know that lunch lady job I interviewed for right after I got laid off. Well I got a call out of the blue today saying the person who was supposed to take the job ended up revoking her contract so they asked me if I still wanted it and of course I did. Hello who wouldn't want to work while their kids are in school and be home a couple hours before they get home plus have all the days off that they have and to top it off have wonderful state benefits.

I am so excited I can Hardly stand it. The wage is crappy but the benefits are worth the lower wage. Wish me luck I am really nervous. I hate starting new jobs.

first day of school 2009

Well the boys have officially gone back to school today. It is only 10:15 am and I have done my dishes,cleaned my house and done 2 loads of laundry. These are things that take me all day to do when my kids are home.

This year Parker and Deshawn are in the first grade and Adam is in the 5th grade. So for the first time in 6 years I am home without any children and I will be honest I am feeling a little freeked out being all alone. Even my dog is acting a little somber. The house is so quiet. But I am sure I will get used to it. Plus I was telling my sister yesterday that I can't wait to miss them. Right now I just want to run away from them. It has been a long and stressful summer and I think everyone was ready to go back to school.

Here are some pics of our last camping/fishing trip, Parkers Birthday and the obligatory 1st day of school pics.

Happy Birthday Parker!

Happy Birthday Kiddo! I can't believe you are turning six years old today. You are such an amazing little guy and even though you snuck your way into this world I couldn't imagine our lives without you in it. You have such a sweet spirit and you are a super awesome snuggle bug. These are the things that make it possible to overlook your free spirit. You are a monkey and can climb anything without fear. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever get use to it. You also are so kind to your brothers (at least most of the time) you are always the one that will give in when there is an argument which I know is not always easy but you do it willingly and it makes me so proud of you. Ya know I thought we had an agreement that you were supposed to stop getting bigger and stay my baby forever. Oh well I guess it is inevitable. I love you little guy so much and I hope your birthday is extra special.

Last week

Last week in bullets

-Finished getting ready for school to start
-Finally found new shoes for all of my boys(it took 4 stores)
-We went fishing at strawberry reservoir and deer creek on Thursday but didnt catch anything
-On Friday we went to a super fun birthday party for my nephew. They had a food fight/water fight party, it was really fun to watch and they had a ball.
-On Saturday I woke up to Rick screaming at the kids saying "how much is this going to cost me" Found out that Deshawn and Parker were climbing on my car and Deshawn somehow smashed in my windshield with his butt.
-Saturday night we finally got the kids settled and we just sat down to watch tv and chill and Adam started screaming that Deshawn was choking and sure enough he had a penny stuck in his throat. It finally made its way to his stomach. So now we have to search his poo every time he goes and watch for that penny.....Good times I tell ya :)
-Sunday we met my sister and her hubby at silver lake flats in American Fork Canyon and FINALLY caught some fish. We had dinner there and packed up and came home.
-As for today I am stuck home waiting for the windshield guy to come and replace my windshield and Ricks windshield. Ricks has had a crack in it for a long time but his registration is due this month so we have to get it replaced.

As far as the job search goes I still haven't found anything that will work for our situation. I need to find something soon though because things are starting to scare me a little. I am sure it will work out though.

I know I said I was going to be a better blogger

I know I said I was going to be a better blogger but alas I have been hooked on that stupid facebook. I have been keeping up on everyone Else's blogs but I haven't been able to put anything together for an actual blog post.

So a couple days ago my sister called and asked if I would come and take some pics of her kids and of course I jumped right on it. I am not a pro but I love to take pics and with todays market it is much cheaper to do your own photos. So I thought I would post a couple of the pics because I love to show off my cute niece and nephew.

I know, I know

I know I have been a terrible blogger lately. I have just been all over the place and I am trying to figure out life. I know that is an impossible feat but none the less I am trying.

In the last 3 weeks I have been trying to find employment to no avail. I had the one interview which went well but I didn't end up getting the job. I have sent my resume to a few other places and have heard nothing but I am holding out promise on one job that is a GREAT job that pays well and has great benefits but it will require alot more commitment from me than I want but I am willing given the circumstances. But I know they have received numerous resumes from qualified people so I am not overly confident. Time will tell :)

As far as my fam goes they are doing well. My boys are a little bored because I don't want to spend any extra money because all the moo la I have I am trying to hang on to incase we need it so I am trying to become creative and come up with some things that won't cost me anything to do.

Rick has had some major back issues the last month and it has been kindof scary to me with me being laid off and all but I do think he is on the healing side of things now. I have felt so bad for all the pain he has had to endure. He has been on steroids, antinflamitories and loritabs until this week and he had had a pretty tough week with work this week. Which is a good thing and a bad thing. Good because they are busy with work but bad because he needs time to heal but he is a trusty employee and is there every day.

Adam just finished up his little league and made it 3 rounds in the city league which is better than he did last year. He was a little disappointed but shhhhh.....don't tell him that I am kindof glad it is over. Other than that he is having fun being a kid which is exactly how I want it.

Deshawn is doing well. Today he came up to me and told me that he loves being black. It was totally out of the blue but it made me proud that we have instilled in him how wonderful he is and that because he is different that only makes him that much more special. God I love that kid :)

Parker...well he is Parker. He is amazing! I have never met such an independent little guy that is such a mommies boy. I love every minute of it. He is my invincible little monkey that is all over the place. Dee and Parker both just finished coach pitch and they were adorable.

As for Mwa I am still on the frustrated side but I am sure it is nothing I can't handle. I just wish the universe would throw me a bone but I still understand there is a time and a place for everything.

Anyway I am going to try to be a better blogger.

I am still going to blog and Happy 4th

I am still going to blog but I thought I would throw it out there that I do have a facebook acct and I find that I am updating that more frequently than my blog so if any of my readers want to be my "friend" just send me an email (mrymer796@yahoo.com) and leave your name and I will add you.

Also I just wanted to wish you all a Happy 4th and I hope you all have a great night with lots of fun fireworks.

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday sweet angel!

job interview

Well I got a phone call yesterday asking me to come in for a job interview for a lunch lady postition at a nearby jr high. So I went over there and I just got back. I hate interviews. My mouth gets all dry and I can barely talk. At least I don't shake because that would be a dead givaway that I was nervous. Anyway so keep your fingers crossed for me. This job would be perfect for our family.

Emotions

Rick warned me on Friday that my emotions would be crazy this week. He has experience with being laid off. I didn't beleive him but he was right. I am feeling so out of control emotionally that all I want to do is scream or cry. It probably doesn't help that I am pms I just feel like I am all over the place. I called to see if I can get unemployment because my work had told me that I qualified for it and since I didn't have a job before this one I cannot collect unemployment until October. How freeking frustrating.

I feel like everytime I blog I am negative nelly but I need this outlet to help get my emotions under control. For the last few months I have not been happy at all. I feel like I have no control over how my life is going and it is pissing me off.

I need to go break up a fight before the boys kill each other :) I will keep ya'll updated on whats up. Especially now that I actually have time to blog now.

Laid Off

So just when I get through my probation period at work and I am about to FINALLY get insurance I got called to the bosses office and they kindly they laid me off. I kindof saw it coming but still I hate having to start over again with another company and have to wait another 3 months to get insurance. I guess it is what it is. I didn't love the job but it was a job that worked for us as far as hours goes.

I really don't have much to say beyond that. Just keep our family in your prayers and hopefully I can find something sooner than later.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MAY

Well we had a very eventful May that is probably why you haven't heard too much from me for awhile. Instead of me telling you all about it I will show you :)


WE HAD A GREAT MOTHERS DAY WEEKEND CAMPING ON BOULDER MOUNTAIN.












THREE SUPER CUTE DANCERS AT THEIR DANCE FESTIVALS (these pics aren't the best,Adam has his back to me and it was so bright at Deshawns school that the picture turned out real dark)








WE HAD 2 KINDERGARTEN GRADUATES!














PARKER WAS SO EXCITED TO GET HIS FIRST MITT HE SLEPT WITH IT ON ALL NIGHT




WE HAVE OFFICIALLY STARTED COACH PITCH!

I blew it!

So I have not been very happy with my job but it's not so miserable I can't stand it but I still haven't been entirely thrilled. So I have been looking into other things and I found a district job that would be perfect so I applied and one of the application requirements was to do a financial test. So I showed up to take the test and started taking it and totally misread something and had to do alot of erasing but I finally figured it all out when I realized it was EARLY OUT day and I was supposed to be home right then to get Deshawn off of the bus(another bad mom award)so I just marked a bunch of answers so I could race out of there. Needless to say I screwed myself out of an interview. I only got 77% which honestly is better than I expected considering. Long story short the bus driver took Deshawn back to the school where I picked him up.

I am frustrated because I really wanted a chance at an interview but I blew that one. Oh well I guess it was not meant to be. I am going to keep looking though because I just keep getting this nagging feeling that I am not supposed to be working where I am. For right now it works so I will keep on working but If anything comes up then I might just have to go for it.

I know I have not posted for awhile. I have been overwhelmed and frustrated and well who wants to read about how miserable someone is. But I do have some pics from last weekend when we went on Adam;s first Turkey hunt. I will fill in details and add pics later. Right now I really need to get some sleep it has been a looooong day.

Another Birthday!!

Happy Birthday sis!!!! You are an amazing sister. Luf ya!

Happy Birthday Dad and Ashy

Happy birthday guys! I love you and hope your birthdays are special.

Sorry dad I couldn't find a better picture.

Donations needed!!!!

I have been reading Kayleighs blog for some time now and I have fallen in love with this little angel. Please go and read about her and if you you can and have it in your hearts please donate to help them with their staggering bills .

I remember when we lost our little Kasey and we received help from friends and family and our community with the funeral costs and how relieving it was to not have to worry about all of that with the grieving we had to do. So this is my time for me to try to pay it forward a little. Every little bit helps.