Well.....

I lost my insurance. It sucks but I am trying to not let it get me down. I am frustrated but I will just have to figure out what to do next.

I am not usually a political person (I know I should probably be) but this years election and my health insurance issues have really brought to light the real issues we are facing. For the average joe the average cost of health insurance is outrageous. For someone with a chronic illness is is unreachable. My husband works in construction so there is no insurance. We tried to get a private plan and we were denied by a couple and the ones that would accept us I believe the grand total would have been over $3000 a month. So yeah that didn't and couldn't happen. I mean I guess we could have lived on the streets and had excellent health care but I think a roof over the head is much more important.

The sad thing is I did nothing to cause my diabetes and I feel like I am being punished for it. I work hard to keep it under control and I still have to have my meds. I don't understand why the government allows insurance companies to get away with it. They charge way too much for medications and lets not forget about the doctor visits. I have to have them to live yet pharmaceutical companies are charging whatever they damn well want. Where is the government in all of this. I personally think their hand is in the cookie jar somewhere. The government won't help me and they let insurance companies deny me coverage and they also let pharmaceutical companies charge me outrageous amounts of money for my meds. It is a loose loose situation.

When I hear McCain talk about throwing out cash to everyone for healthcare I just laugh because that does nothing for the chronically ill people out there. We can't get insurance. The insurance companies deny us.

Rick says that Obama wants to govern all the healthcare and that the government will have all the say as far as what meds you get to take and what doctors you can see. Well for me I say at least I am getting healthcare. It may not be exactly what I want but at least it is better than nothing. Like I say I am not a very political person but I have never been in the situation I am in now.


Sorry about the ranting I am just worked up. I know there are alot of other people out there that are in worse situations than me. I know it will all work out. Right now I have written the pharmaceutical company that supplies my insulin and I am asking them to give me assistance with my insulin. I will hopefully hear from them soon. My mom is going to hook me up with test strips. The oral meds I take are on Walmarts $4 plan so I will only have to pay $40 for 3 month supply of that. Walgreens has a walgreens brand syringe that is only $17 for a 3 month supply. I might have to change doctors which kindof sucks because it takes alot for me to be comfortable with a doctor but he charges like $300 a visit and it is not doable. There is a clinic that is alot less money that I might be able to go to. So as long as I can get assistance with my insulin I won't have to go back to work for awhile. So I am asking all of my faithful readers to please pray or send out some good vibes for me.

Thanks for listening!

Double digits!

Well my Adam has hit the double digits. I really can't hardly believe he is 10 years old already. He is an amazing guy and he is such an amazing part of this family. He was my miracle baby that took me over 2 years to get and I will never forget how grateful and blessed I felt when he was born.

He had a great birthday party today. He sent out 16 invites to friends at school and then I invited my side of the family. My sister is the only one from my family that showed up with kids and she only has 2. So you would think plan for maybe half of the invites right? Oh no, not when it comes to Adam my little socialite. I made goodie bags and planned on 20 kids. I wanted to make sure just incase they all came that I would have enough. Well every single goodie bag was taken. So not only did all of the 16 people show up from school but my sisters 2 kids and 2 extras not sure which ones they were but there were extra's. How funny! There were even 3 girls that showed up.

We went to good ole IHO.P for dinner. Adams choice. He wanted Micky D's at first but we finally talked him into something a little less greasy. Then I took him to get a leash for his puppy and a new playstation game. His birthday money was burning a hole in his pocket. He got around $70 today and he still hasn't got money from my sis and all of Ricks fam so I am sure he will find something good to spend his moo la on.

He is really not my baby anymore :( He is growing so fast and it's exciting and scary all at the same time.

Well he didn't quite cry....

We decided to let Adam have his present early because I was feeling bad because the puppy was not getting attention from Adam. Adam and his best neighborhood friend who got our last pup have been giving all their attention to the friends dog and no attention to Adam's dog.

So after talking about it we decided to go ahead and give it to him. We snuck the pup in the house and gave it him. He was so excited. He didn't know whether or not to believe it was his at first. He didn't quite cry but I did see a little tear.

So Adam and his friend are having a sleepover in the backyard with their puppies. They are simply adorable :)

I thought I would post some other fun pics of the boys. I have some of Dee and Parker at their soccer game last week. We also have some pics of the boys getting their hair done. I also took a pic of Parker, Daddy and Bailey snoozing away after a long day :)



All tuckered out!




What a stud




What is my mom making me do?




My aunt Shanda doing my hair.




look how cute!




Parker Mr. Goalie




Dee waiting to play



I have a a video of last weeks soccer game. They are so fun to watch at this age!



For some reason the sound is not matching up with the image but I am sure you can get the jist of it.

What's a mom to do?

Well we had another Dee incident today. I let him go play in the backyard this afternoon so he could play with the puppies and I was out there with him for a minute and came in the house to make a quick phone call and walked back out to check on him and there was no Dee and no puppies. So at first I am pissed and I search the whole neighborhood and he is nowhere. So I went back in the house thinking maybe he came back in the house but of course no he is not. So I am no longer pissed at this point I am FREEKING OUT and I decide to go out and check our trailer and the trailer was locked so I checked that off the list and decide to do a neighborhood backyard check and he is still nowhere by this point the tears are flowing and I am shaking to death. Then I thought well maybe he is in the trailer and locked himself in. So I go to the trailer and knock on the door and scream at Dee to open the door if he was in there. I tried to look in the window but of course the blinds are all closed. I still have no idea where he could possibly be and I am in complete hysterics. I ran in the house to call Rick and the whole time I am screaming Deshawn's name (note the throat is killing me now) I finally get Rick on the phone and I can barely speak. My throat was sore and I felt like I was going to pass out and then I decided maybe he might be hiding in the trailer because I could swear I didn't lock it last time I was in there. So I found the keys after ripping my house apart to find them and I ran out to the trailer. Just as I open the door my neighbors come over in a complete panic because they can hear me breaking down and I look in the trailer and screamed Deshawns name one more time and what do I hear? Ah yes a little tiny voice saying "what". I completely broke down mind you my husband is on the phone while all of this is going on. Poor guy there was nothing he could do but I just felt better having him trying to calm me down.

If there is one kid in the world that can make you feel like a complete disaster as a mother it is Dee. I love him so much but he tries me so hard. I can't tell sometimes if I am helping him or hurting him. I seriously yelled at him so hard when I found him. It made me feel so bad. Like scum of the earth but I was so scared and frustrated.

Needless to say we are all doing much better this evening and hopefully I didn't cause permanent damage to my child by having a nervous breakdown.

My grandbabies are gone....

We decided it was time to find our puppies a new home. We decided to advertise on one of our local free classifieds and well they were literally gone in 10 minutes. Can you believe it. Here is the best part I had one female and 4 males left that we still had to find homes for and the person that ended up getting all (yes all) works for a group that helps low income families acquire pets. How great is that? The puppies are not being sold or used to make money they are just going to families that really want a pet and can't afford ridiculous prices. It makes me really happy. I am still sad to see them go but I can't keep them all. We had one other person come and get their little guy and one more picking up their girl tonight. So we still have the chocolate(adam's surprise) and one more female that our neighbors have dibs on so I think they all are placed yeah. Best of all it only took 10 minutes :)

To work or not to work......

So I have been toying with the idea of going back to work. Of course I would have to work at nights or weekends because my kids come first. I have been able to get assistance for my meds and if they don't renew me I will have to go back to work so I can get some benefits. Unfortunately I am deemed uninsurable on private plans because of my diabetes and the only way for me to get coverage is to get on a plan with a business because they can't deny me that way.

It kindof bums me out because I already feel stretched thin sometimes and this will probably push me over the edge but I have tried to figure our budget and after bills and other monthly expenses we are only left with $5oo to deal with anything that comes up (yeah I know we are living on a tight budget but it its what you do when you want to raise your kids on your own)and when I added up what our meds will cost (me and dee) it was like $486 a month. So $24 is just not enough to cut it unfortunately :)

I am not opposed to working. I actually get excited at the prospects of getting out and being with grown ups again but I feel like I am being pushed into right now. I really want to wait until they are all in school fulltime (next year). I still may be able to get renewed and hold off for another year but I am not counting on it.

I have also been toying with the idea of going back to school. I already have a Medical assisting degree but I have never done anything with it and alot of the medical facilities around here don't really utilize MA's. So I have to make some decisions about what I want to be when I grow up :)

On other news, I really like the schedule with the boys' schooling. Dee goes in the morning and Parker in the afternoon. There is alot less fighting and the atmosphere is pretty calm during the day. I think the boys like it too. They are happy to see each other and are playing real well when they all unite in the afternoon.

The boys are all still in soccer. They have 2 games left and then Adam will be starting football. I am so proud of my boys. They love to be active (a little too much sometimes) and I am grateful for that. I hope they will stay active in sports because #1 I think sports can be very important for them when they are in their teens and #2 I think it helps their self esteem.

Well this is turning into a lot longer post than I had anticipated so I think I will go now.

They are so cute!!!

Okay people I have six more puppies that need good homes so if you know anyone in Utah that wants a puppy or 2 we are not going to charge for these pups because we want to make sure we can find good homes for them. We have had their dew claws removed but we have decided to not do any of the shots since we are not charging for them.

Okay so I have a secret so anyone who reads this and knows my oldest son Adam you can't tell him. We are keeping one of the chocolate labs for his birthday present. He has begged and begged to keep one and we keep telling him no. But we finally decided that he was responsible enough to care for him. He knows I have a soft spot in my heart for the chocolate ones because the dog I had growing up was a chocolate lab and I just love them. So he keeps telling me we should have one of those but I told him that a girl I used to work with at the bank came and picked the puppy out while he was at school. Then I am going to send the pup away for a couple days and tell Adam that she came and got him. He is going to be so excited when he opens the present. I wouldn't be surprised if he cried. We will have to see.



Adam and one of the girl puppies we named stitch




This little guy is Adams SURPRISE!




Parker being attacked!




Cute little guy!




Dirty nose too cute!





HELLO way too adorable!

I know, I know

I have been a blogger slacker. I think I just haven't had too much to say so I have just let my blog go. We had a nice labor day weekend. We stayed home this year in hopes to get our deck completed but if you live in Utah then you know what happened to our weather. It dumped HARD! It was crazy the amount of rain we got. So we hit up a couple sales and bought some summer clothes for our trip in November. But we pretty much just relaxed and chilled most of the weekend. Other than that there is not too much to report. The kids are good I am still dieting(yuck) and Rick is always busy.