Slacking!!!

I have been a blogger slacker lately. I have wanted to put up my easter pics since sunday but thanks to my wonderful son (dee) I only have one pic left. He deleted all of my easter pictures. I was disappointed but he didn't do it deliberately so I guess I will have to forgive him. At least the pic I have left is a pic of the loot the bunny left.

The boys had a great easter and they had so much candy it was making me sick watching them eat it all. I am the type of mom that lets them eat it all real fast. There are several reasons why. First of all I don't want all that candy around the house because I have a weakness for the stuff and it is way to easy for me to sneak. Second, I would rather them get a sugar rush all at once instead of all damn week. Third, when they eat their candy they are horrible about not throwing the wrappers away so I obviously don't want that to last for a whole week. Fourth, they leave candy on the floor for the dog to sneak which results in massive amounts of puke from a little 7 lbs dog (you don't want to know about all that though). So as you can see I have my reasons for letting my kids have loose with the candy.

Okay so I am a weirdo. Anyway here is the pics I was talking about.

Happy anniversary baby!!!!

Well 12 years ago today me and my hubby were married. Wow the time has flown by so fast. It is amazing to me how much more I love him today than I did then. I thought I couldn't love anyone anymore than I did then. We have had some major hurdles in these 12 years and I am so greatful that he was the one by my side through it. I love that he always kisses me goodbye in the morning and tells me he loves me. Even when I am half asleep and probably won't remember he still does it. I love how in the evening when we watch tv he always gets up to kiss me or hug me during the commercials. I love how when I am having a bad day he knows and goes the extra mile to help me out. I love that he makes me feel beautiful even when I am still wearing the same clothes I have been in all week and my hair hasn't seen a brush in 3 days. I love that I know he loves me that I don't even have to question it ever. I love that he is the best daddy in the whole world and that his family is most important to him. There are hundreds of things that I love about him. He truley is an amzing person. So happy anniversay Rick!

Happy St Patty's!!!!!

I just wanted to wish you all a happy St Patricks day.

It's been awhile since I update with new info so I'll try to fill you all in. HMMMMMM lets see....... not much has really been going on. I am still on my lovely diet. I have lost the weight that I gained back after Vegas and I have lost 2 more for a total of 17lbs so far. I have also been able to drop my insulin to 25 units once a day and about 2 times a week I will give myself maybe 10 units before bed but my blood sugars have been fabulous. I went from 110 units everyday to 25-35 units. I really hope I can go off of insulin completely but I dunno if that will happen because I know I can't cut any more carbs because it won't be healthy. I need some carbs to function especially with all the working out I am doing. I really am trying to do this weight loss thing as healthy as possible.

So on Saturday my family hired a hypnotist to put on a show for us. I had a blast. There is nothing like going to one of those shows and knowing every person. I think it made it even funnier. I really hope we will do something like this again because it was alot of fun. The hypnotist was so much fun. He had a great personality and I honestly thinks he loves his job. He was having so much fun that he ended up going over almost an hour.

Anyway I gotta go scrub some toilets. Hope you alll have a fun day:))

Luck of the Irish....

Here is a picture of the boys when aunt shelly had them while we were in Vegas. I think they always have too much fun at aunt shelly's house. She always seems to spoil them pretty good.

trying something new

Well I took deshawn to the doctor today and he has given me a couple of things to try with him. He told me to develop some kindof reward system for him. So we went out and bought some index cards and some fun little stickers and everytime we see him doing anything postive we will give him a sticker. We need to figure out how the whole thing will work but hopefully it will help him try to keep a more positive attitude. The doc told us to do this with parker too. So there is some healthy competition.

Another thing he has suggested is when dee is doing anything "negative" to ignore it and not give him any kind of attention for it. Hopefully this will work because it is really hard to listen when he is having his screaming fits.

I know I say this all the time but I feel so bad for him. I just want him to be happy and not be frustrated. He really is a heartmelter. His laugh can seriously lift my soul. I am proud of him even though it seems like I am always frustrated. I don't think I blog enough about all the good he does too. I tend to get on here and vent about how frustrated I am. I really love him with every fiber of my being. I am so happy and humbled that he is my son. I just hope I can provide him with all the love and help he needs.

Okay after dee's doc appt we all got in the car and I turned to look in the backseat to see if the boys had their belts on and I discovered that not only my boys were safe and secure but their beloved Woody was also safe :)

dry spell

It doesn't seem like anyone has too much to say these days. What's up with that? I feel like I should blog but I really don't have much to blog about.

The only thing I can come up with is I have another appt with dee's behavioral specialist tommorrow. I am not sure we will be making too many changes but I am still concerned with how to deal with his frustration. His sleeping is better than a couple weeks ago but his crying is still not good. He is 5 years old and still cannot communicate well and he is so frustrated I have no idea what to do for him. He cries all the time and it makes me feel so horrible like I have no way to make him understand things. The real problem is if I let him have "his" way than there would be no problem but how can I teach him if I give into him everytime he wants something?

I dunno we will see what the doc says! I will keep you updated.

What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas!!!!!

Okay so we are back from our lovely weekend. We had a blast and got lots of shopping in at the outlet stores there. It was funny because we all pretty much bought stuff for our husbands and kids. What can I say we are wives and mothers. I did buy a cute hat though. Oh yeah and I got to wear shorts all day on saturday. Sunday was windy so I didn't wear shorts but I did get a sunburn. All I can say is BRING IT ON. I can't wait until summer and I can get some warmth in these bones.

I did end up going to the race on Sunday because one of they other guys gave me his tickets. I have no idea why because they were VIP tickets and we got to go to what they call the hospitality village and USG (a company that makes sheetrock) who gave us our tickets had a tent there and they had all you can eat all you can drink buffets. Plus they gave away all kinds of shirts and hats and these matchbox cars and a bunch of little nick knacks. We had all we needed there to bring back to the boys as souvenirs. It was alot of fun.

I am glad to be back. I was starting to miss my little guys. I hate that you just can't wait to get a break and then when you are there all you want to do is get back to them. At least I got a break because the next little while is going to be crazy. We have taxes to do and a campout coming up and our house project should be starting soon. Before you know it it will be summer. YEAH!

So I did gain back 3 pounds but it was worth it. I didn't eat too much but I also didn't get in any workouts either. So I just have to get back on the wagon and go for it. I have a dr apt at the end of the month so my goal before I go back to him is to lose 20 lbs total. Oh yeah and I have dropped my insulin from 110 units a day to 40-50 units a day.

Anyway it was good times. Can't wait to go back again:)